Not so long ago...

[arazia]

Not so long ago, I was alone.
I had a voice, but I didn't know how to speak.
I needed comfort but the world was a cold as stone.
I needed answers. The reasons why I am.
Questions that linger, hidden away.

Not so long ago, I made a wish.
A wish that I sent out into the night. Into the lands and worlds beyond.
I imagined a safe place to come home to.
Those who might understand.
A place where I belonged.

Not so long ago, I took a chance.
I stepped forward found that the cold world can burn hot.
I hurt. And in that pain found some semblance of the person I was meant to be.
I moved on. Kept moving. Kept dreaming.
Knowing that something waited for me.

Not so long ago, I reached out.
I let others in to a wounded place, and found that it could heal.
Friendship, hope, love, things that I'd so longed for at my fingertips.
Afraid to hold on too tight, afraid to let go.
No more little pieces of my heart taken away.

Not so long ago, I was surprised.
Where once an ember fanned to flame I couldn't deny.
Now, more than ever, I am afraid. I could lose everything.
I want to try. I want to hope. I want to let free my heart to follow.
Uncertain, each day is another step.

Not so long ago, I wrote.
I wrote of things past and future, dreams and memories.
Within these words are no answers, only questions.
But words are the heart's way of speaking to us. Guiding us.
And I will listen.