2 story books closed...
Well this weekend was a big one for me. Saturday marked the ending of 2 eras in my life. WAM ended (horray!) and a friendship ended. It was bitter sweet for WAM i am happy to have my weekends back to myself instead of being up at 7:15 saturday and sunday. But i am going to miss all the cool ass people i have met there. I got all their numbers so its all good.
( this is where i start venting and i may come off as a bitch... deal with it)
As for the frienship ending... its kind of releiving. She is so wraped up in herself that she doesnt see nor think of anyone or anything around her. She only cares for one person and its her. I can honestly say i have never met anyone in my life that actualy made the world revolve around them. I mean little kids try, but have a hard time succeeding... but she managed. Good thing i am out of her gravitational pull now. I was sick and tired of listening to her bitch and complain about her peoblems and really didnt exsist. You have money in the bank, quit bitching about not having gas money. There are people, like me and tonya that have bigger and more important problems with money and other things. But you dont see me bitching about it, i work my ass off to get the money i do have, and i did have to spend. instead of bitching about money i bitch about the government, cuz they are the reason i have no money. FUCKERS! You never seem to get the whole story out of her, only the half that makes her sounds like the victim. I am alos sick and tired of listening to her complain about how tired she is. The earliest she has to be to work is 1030 in the morning. and if she is there at 1030 she is there till 3 or 5 at the lastest. You work 5 or 6 hours at the MOST. Me on the other hand has to be to work at 8 monday thru friday and 3 or more days a week i have to work 2 jobs with no time inbetween. thats ME working anywhere from 8 to 14 hours a day. I have bitten my lip so many times cuz she was my best friend and i tried being there for her when she was "sad and depressed" about... whatever it was that day, but i cant do it anymore. Whens he had a boyfriend i was pretty much nothing to her other than someone to smoke with and to bitch at about her boyfriend. I guess thats what friends are?? now imn ot saying i am a perfect angle in any way. cuz im not, i am a bitch and dont care about many people around me, but i do care about the people i should and try to sdo my best in not hurting them in anyway.
I dont want to seem like a bitch by writting all this and I know i have already ripped her apart, but i cant stand it anymore. And saturday night was the last straw. I knew she wasnt going to tell mewhat happend (cuz she would NEVER in a million years make herself look like the bad guy) so i had to hear it from a real friend. All i had to say to her was pretty much "i hate you" i dont hate her, i just would rather not be friends with someone like that. and MARK MY WORDS on this one, when she finally does get my attention her excuse will be either a) i was drunk dude b) i didnt know you never told me or c) both a and b. I dont have time to be friedns with someone like that. Its a damn good thing i have Katie, she loves me and will always be there for me no matter what. If i call her crying she isnt going to say to me "dude im sleeping i have a headache" katie would be at my house in a spilt second.
So with that said... we were best friends for almost 2 years, and now were not. we can still live together, just dont expect me to talk to you. Maybe one day i will, just not any time to soon. Potvin will be happy on my decison.
I had a strange dream saturday night. Rob and i were in love. i smiled when i woke up. it seems really real. but it wasnt. it was cute. But i probably shouldnt be dreaming about him ... seeing as there is someone else i should be dreaming about... but he really isnt tooo important. not as important as rob once was in life. ugh. who knows and who cares? im just going with the flow.
Hung out with my cuz jess on friday, i lovey her. sometimes.
Our kegger was fun, minus some of the "still @ dondero rat girls".
ok im out.
peece
Tara
( this is where i start venting and i may come off as a bitch... deal with it)
As for the frienship ending... its kind of releiving. She is so wraped up in herself that she doesnt see nor think of anyone or anything around her. She only cares for one person and its her. I can honestly say i have never met anyone in my life that actualy made the world revolve around them. I mean little kids try, but have a hard time succeeding... but she managed. Good thing i am out of her gravitational pull now. I was sick and tired of listening to her bitch and complain about her peoblems and really didnt exsist. You have money in the bank, quit bitching about not having gas money. There are people, like me and tonya that have bigger and more important problems with money and other things. But you dont see me bitching about it, i work my ass off to get the money i do have, and i did have to spend. instead of bitching about money i bitch about the government, cuz they are the reason i have no money. FUCKERS! You never seem to get the whole story out of her, only the half that makes her sounds like the victim. I am alos sick and tired of listening to her complain about how tired she is. The earliest she has to be to work is 1030 in the morning. and if she is there at 1030 she is there till 3 or 5 at the lastest. You work 5 or 6 hours at the MOST. Me on the other hand has to be to work at 8 monday thru friday and 3 or more days a week i have to work 2 jobs with no time inbetween. thats ME working anywhere from 8 to 14 hours a day. I have bitten my lip so many times cuz she was my best friend and i tried being there for her when she was "sad and depressed" about... whatever it was that day, but i cant do it anymore. Whens he had a boyfriend i was pretty much nothing to her other than someone to smoke with and to bitch at about her boyfriend. I guess thats what friends are?? now imn ot saying i am a perfect angle in any way. cuz im not, i am a bitch and dont care about many people around me, but i do care about the people i should and try to sdo my best in not hurting them in anyway.
I dont want to seem like a bitch by writting all this and I know i have already ripped her apart, but i cant stand it anymore. And saturday night was the last straw. I knew she wasnt going to tell mewhat happend (cuz she would NEVER in a million years make herself look like the bad guy) so i had to hear it from a real friend. All i had to say to her was pretty much "i hate you" i dont hate her, i just would rather not be friends with someone like that. and MARK MY WORDS on this one, when she finally does get my attention her excuse will be either a) i was drunk dude b) i didnt know you never told me or c) both a and b. I dont have time to be friedns with someone like that. Its a damn good thing i have Katie, she loves me and will always be there for me no matter what. If i call her crying she isnt going to say to me "dude im sleeping i have a headache" katie would be at my house in a spilt second.
So with that said... we were best friends for almost 2 years, and now were not. we can still live together, just dont expect me to talk to you. Maybe one day i will, just not any time to soon. Potvin will be happy on my decison.
I had a strange dream saturday night. Rob and i were in love. i smiled when i woke up. it seems really real. but it wasnt. it was cute. But i probably shouldnt be dreaming about him ... seeing as there is someone else i should be dreaming about... but he really isnt tooo important. not as important as rob once was in life. ugh. who knows and who cares? im just going with the flow.
Hung out with my cuz jess on friday, i lovey her. sometimes.
Our kegger was fun, minus some of the "still @ dondero rat girls".
ok im out.
peece
Tara