on dead squirrels
So, last night I saw a dead squirrel. Apparently it fell out of its tree, it wasn't gross looking or anything, it was just laying there face down not moving, slightly flatter than you would expect a squirrel to be. Now I don't know who I am anymore (not in the amnesiac kind of way in the searching for myself kind of way). I went to see Eli's film in the Student works part of the Florida Film Festival yesterday, it was good. I went with Dieter and Yvette. I've been hanging out with them the past two days and now both of them have left.
It was fun. The readings of erotica continue. The watching of movies continue. The getting angry at certain people continues. The lack of trust continues. The uncleanliness continues. and so on and so on.
I went over to Sutton last night, and had fun for about the first hour os so and then I should have just left. Certain boys decided it would be funny to make me feel extremely uncomfortable, granted they probably didn't realize they were making me feel pretty horrible but, I still felt pretty bad. I rode around on the bicycle for a while before heading back to my room, alone. I hate it when people make assumptions. Yesterday I also went with Yvette and Greg to watch a movie in the park "The Philadelphia Story" but alas it was too cold and we left. We then watched Donnie Darko, which I quite enjoyed.
I decided if I can't trust myself there is no way I can trust anyone else. If I was drunk persay, and a certain individual (who will remain nameless) was to make advances on me, I don't think I would stop him/her. But then again I haven't put myself in that situation where as someone I know might have and I think he'she would react the same way as I would. This has nothing to do with my stupid relationship. I refuse to care about that, piishah. (I know I know, I do care)
That is all, last night I came to terms with certain things but they haven't come to terms with me, uhm, yeah that made sense.
It was fun. The readings of erotica continue. The watching of movies continue. The getting angry at certain people continues. The lack of trust continues. The uncleanliness continues. and so on and so on.
I went over to Sutton last night, and had fun for about the first hour os so and then I should have just left. Certain boys decided it would be funny to make me feel extremely uncomfortable, granted they probably didn't realize they were making me feel pretty horrible but, I still felt pretty bad. I rode around on the bicycle for a while before heading back to my room, alone. I hate it when people make assumptions. Yesterday I also went with Yvette and Greg to watch a movie in the park "The Philadelphia Story" but alas it was too cold and we left. We then watched Donnie Darko, which I quite enjoyed.
I decided if I can't trust myself there is no way I can trust anyone else. If I was drunk persay, and a certain individual (who will remain nameless) was to make advances on me, I don't think I would stop him/her. But then again I haven't put myself in that situation where as someone I know might have and I think he'she would react the same way as I would. This has nothing to do with my stupid relationship. I refuse to care about that, piishah. (I know I know, I do care)
That is all, last night I came to terms with certain things but they haven't come to terms with me, uhm, yeah that made sense.