Jun 24, 2004 23:39
how in high school I used to do this thing with my "best friend." During the period before we stopped being good friends, I'd never really talk with her or hang out with her, but I'd try to always fix it by saying "Oh I can always count on you" or "You are just the best friend I've ever had" or "I'm so lucky to have you as a close friend." I figured that by saying this I was somehow forcing it to be true without ever putting the work into the relationship that would allow for us to stay "best friends." That obviously didn't work, and I can see how that probably really annoyed the girl who was my friend.
It's easy to recognize friendship and it doesn't need a label. It's also hard sometimes when you have ideas about a relationship that really don't develop like you thought they would.
Sometimes I feel more concerned for people than I should. I have a hard time just letting it go when I see them doing something I disagree with. It shouldn't worry me what they do because it's their life, their feelings, their image, etc. But it BUGS me so much, and when I try to keep quiet about it I feel like I am going to explode.
There are two pretty strong Christians at the bank, and this makes me very happy.
I just got a voicemail from Steve, and am very very very very sad that I didn't get it earlier and am now missing out on seeing three men that I admire and care for very much.