So I'm crazy

[aramuin]

I'm feeling stuck in a rut, so I seek distraction in drabble form. Anyone want one?
Rules are simple:

i. Three requests.
ii. I need to know the fandom.
iii. No other restrictions. (I already know I'm going to regret this -.-;;;; )

Have at!

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OMG_Maou: Ani/Gis: Flowers For Fidelity:

[aramuin]

I bring you flowers every day, twice if we fight, three times if we have a screaming match and every hour on the hour if we slip into the sort of fighting that doesn't need words. The one that we fight with silence and averted gazes in the spaces between us and other people.

I hate those fights, but just like everything else I hate, they happen all the time. And what's worse is that I can't tell you this. I've tried preparing to tell you, tried writing it out and I even tried to just tell you on the spur of the moment.

It never works. The words knot and tangle into a lump of viscous emotion just at the back of my throat. It feels like it did to be naked in front of Gurrier. All exposed and vulnerable with enemies on every side. I hate it so I lash out...and there's a part of me, a tiny corner of my mind and heart that's as twisted as he is, that is glad I can hurt you back like that.

But it hurts so much more when you turn away or you go cold and I'm even more alone.

I love you with all that I am and there are times like these, when I'm terrified that it's not enough.

I braid and bundle long-stemmed flowers, hoping you'll understand what I'm saying.

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

Forgive me?

And your eyes as you take the flowers from me tells me all I need to know.

Always