Epilogue
Well, its been a few days since i found the proof that dana had cheated on me with josh and sent gideon naked pictures of herself. Ive since moved out and unfortunatly where im staying doesnt have internet so i havent been able to update this till now. I went back and made all my posts public as i have no need to hide anything ive written here. Before i confronted her i moved all my stuff out and waited for her to get home. I even went through and took back everything id ever given her. Then i found an old journal that i had bought for her. The latest entries were very old, but what i saw filles me with grief whenever i think about them. I had made her feel for a long time how i never wanted to make her feel. I held back too much about the way i felt about her. She felt like she couldnt be herself with me. She felt unnatractive and alone. In truth i love her for her flaws as much as her strengths and i find dana to be absolutly beautiful and i was afraid of crowding her so i let her be alone. I should have never held back.
When she came home i confronted her with the evidence and she admitted to it. We talked and argued for a few hrs. But when it was over, we kissed. It was like we were kissing again for the first time. I've since realized that ive done something that i swore back when i was a kid i would never do. I've fallen in love with dana unconditionally. My friends are all really concerned about me and are afraid of what could happen to me. They are concerned that she could continue to manipulate me as she has the last month. They are all telling me that i should move on. Im not sure i can. I still feel so strongly for her even with all that has happened. Dana has asked me to give her time to be alone for a while so she can straighten herself out and concentrate on her job. We still love each other and i can forgive her if she can forgive me. Not sure if im going to wind up back with her or with someone else. But given my track record with relationships i have no guarentee that id be better off if i did get with someone else. But at least with dana, i know i love her. I guess ill just seee what happens.
When she came home i confronted her with the evidence and she admitted to it. We talked and argued for a few hrs. But when it was over, we kissed. It was like we were kissing again for the first time. I've since realized that ive done something that i swore back when i was a kid i would never do. I've fallen in love with dana unconditionally. My friends are all really concerned about me and are afraid of what could happen to me. They are concerned that she could continue to manipulate me as she has the last month. They are all telling me that i should move on. Im not sure i can. I still feel so strongly for her even with all that has happened. Dana has asked me to give her time to be alone for a while so she can straighten herself out and concentrate on her job. We still love each other and i can forgive her if she can forgive me. Not sure if im going to wind up back with her or with someone else. But given my track record with relationships i have no guarentee that id be better off if i did get with someone else. But at least with dana, i know i love her. I guess ill just seee what happens.