where has my mind gone??
i was supposed to go to the cef state board meeting tonight to do my presentation and i forgotttttttt. whooopppssss. i feel wickedddd badddd.. ahhhhh. i never forget anything like that. that's why i don't write stuff like that down even though i should. and i didn't even think of it even once today until mrs. b called 5 minutes after the meeting was supposed to start and asked if i was coming. grr i hate when i do that. especially since this is the.. 3rd one i've planned on going to and ended up not going. the 1st two times i was sick so i had to cancel and i felt wicked bad even then but now i forgot! and i feel even worse! not only did i forget, but i missed it 3 times in a row because of it! here i was, writing away, with my measly 2600 of 50,000 words, when i should have been at the meeting. oiii. and what makes me think i'll ever reach 50,000 now? hah! i'll have to write alllll the tiiimmmeee. i dont want toooo. but i dont want to give up, either. to say i wrote a 50,000 word novel in a month would be so cool. maybe even cooler since i didn't even really start writing until the twelvth day of the month. because i started at the beginning and wrote like 1900 and didn't write again until now so now i gotta get going and so now is when it really starts. i need to keep writing but can't help but feel guilty because i know i should be at that meeting right now. bahh. erggghhh. ugghhh. gahhh. ok that's enough of that. la de da. back to writing, i guess.
well, one more thing. i miss my friends. i know i have lots of friends, good friends, but they're all far away. and busy. they have lives, unlike me. so isn't it only natural to feel lonely when all my friends are being busy and i have no one to talk to or do stuff with? it's crazy that i'm saying this, but i miss my busy, crazy, hectic life, when i was doing stuff with other people all the time. i know it will be like that once i start school up again, but this whole taking a semester off thing has been harddd.
ok. now that that's out of my system, back to writing about a 15 year old boy who has to take care of his agoraphobic mom. don't worry, it will turn out good. there will be a happy ending. i don't want to spoil it now though.
well, one more thing. i miss my friends. i know i have lots of friends, good friends, but they're all far away. and busy. they have lives, unlike me. so isn't it only natural to feel lonely when all my friends are being busy and i have no one to talk to or do stuff with? it's crazy that i'm saying this, but i miss my busy, crazy, hectic life, when i was doing stuff with other people all the time. i know it will be like that once i start school up again, but this whole taking a semester off thing has been harddd.
ok. now that that's out of my system, back to writing about a 15 year old boy who has to take care of his agoraphobic mom. don't worry, it will turn out good. there will be a happy ending. i don't want to spoil it now though.