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So it seems like everyone is shocked at how fast this summer has gone by, but to me, I feel like we still have long ways to go. There's like 2.5 weeks until school starts, which is plenty of time.
Today I had the most weirdest dream ever. I visited an old friend in Korea, except I brought Sarah Brown with me. We were going on the 14th floor of my friend's apartment. On our way in, Page joined us except she had to go to the bathroom on the 13th floor. So we were waiting, and the next thing I knew, Page was gone and Sarah and I were in the elevator except it shot up to like 2093423th floor. It was the scariest thing ever. So we were frantically trying to press numbers in the 14 area except we somehow managed to press the 'stop' button. The elevator stopped and dropped us back down at like 892374 miles per hour. It was a great face lift. I then woke up... breathing heavily.
I have to say goodbye to someone that I really care about and love except I don't know how to. How can I leave without disappointing him? How can I leave on a good note? How can I leave someone who's done everything for me? I know I have to do it soon but I keep on delaying it. I really don't want to do it in person because I just HATE that feeling. I also don't want to do it over phone because I don't want to be pained with the silence. I actually want to write a sentimental email, explaining all my feelings and reasons that I won't be able to actually say out loud, but I feel like if I do that, I am doing it for me, and not necessarily for what he deserves. I really don't know what I should do. I really don't know. I know he's expecting it, which pains me even more because it seems like he's ready to get hurt.
More rambling later.
Today I had the most weirdest dream ever. I visited an old friend in Korea, except I brought Sarah Brown with me. We were going on the 14th floor of my friend's apartment. On our way in, Page joined us except she had to go to the bathroom on the 13th floor. So we were waiting, and the next thing I knew, Page was gone and Sarah and I were in the elevator except it shot up to like 2093423th floor. It was the scariest thing ever. So we were frantically trying to press numbers in the 14 area except we somehow managed to press the 'stop' button. The elevator stopped and dropped us back down at like 892374 miles per hour. It was a great face lift. I then woke up... breathing heavily.
I have to say goodbye to someone that I really care about and love except I don't know how to. How can I leave without disappointing him? How can I leave on a good note? How can I leave someone who's done everything for me? I know I have to do it soon but I keep on delaying it. I really don't want to do it in person because I just HATE that feeling. I also don't want to do it over phone because I don't want to be pained with the silence. I actually want to write a sentimental email, explaining all my feelings and reasons that I won't be able to actually say out loud, but I feel like if I do that, I am doing it for me, and not necessarily for what he deserves. I really don't know what I should do. I really don't know. I know he's expecting it, which pains me even more because it seems like he's ready to get hurt.
More rambling later.