Family
I see my friends getting married all around me, and building families of their own. I have seen my friends children born and growing. And the one thing they keep telling me is that everything changes once you have a family Erick, you just won't understand until you have your own.
This is what I have to say.
I held my sister and looked down at her in my arms 30 minutes after her birth. I was 8 years old. But at that moment, when I looked into her eyes and saw a new life right there I saw my responsibility as her brother, as her elder. And I felt some of what my father must have felt when he first held me. She was a helpless babe looking up at me with trust in her eyes, trust that I would keep her safe and protected.
As I grew and watched her grow, I held onto that responsibility. I have tried being there for her when she needed it, and have tried to guide her as best I know how. Granted it wasn't as heavy as that upon my parents, but I knew it and I did it. And I know it now. I will know it when I bring my child into this world.
I know that i am not ready to add that responsibility upon my life. It does not mean that I hate children. I love them. All of them, regardless of parentage. It will not be a blind drive/ decision when I have my child, it will be a heavily decided upon and weighted thought.
I just wish that more people in this world understood that.
This is what I have to say.
I held my sister and looked down at her in my arms 30 minutes after her birth. I was 8 years old. But at that moment, when I looked into her eyes and saw a new life right there I saw my responsibility as her brother, as her elder. And I felt some of what my father must have felt when he first held me. She was a helpless babe looking up at me with trust in her eyes, trust that I would keep her safe and protected.
As I grew and watched her grow, I held onto that responsibility. I have tried being there for her when she needed it, and have tried to guide her as best I know how. Granted it wasn't as heavy as that upon my parents, but I knew it and I did it. And I know it now. I will know it when I bring my child into this world.
I know that i am not ready to add that responsibility upon my life. It does not mean that I hate children. I love them. All of them, regardless of parentage. It will not be a blind drive/ decision when I have my child, it will be a heavily decided upon and weighted thought.
I just wish that more people in this world understood that.