even the best fall down sometimes....
today sucks its one of the worst days in a long ass while.....
we got our report cards today. and you should know what that means. Yeah im a dumbass. i failed math. i have no excuse at all its my own fault, but it sucks ass majorly. I am supposed to take summer school which would mean one of 2 things. #1. i would not go to hilton head and i would have to pass lessman back 145 dollars to get her airare refunded. #2 no showchoir camp. well it turns out i have more than enought credits so i can retake it next school year. Thats good.... i guess? I am screwed beyond belife at this point. I have a 2.7 cum and i need to go to school at a good university.. shit i am fucked.
My parents are so pissed that my crephew for my senior year is a 11 the time of your life for me is going to suck... i have to now pay for schowchoir camp... and they took the money out of the college acount. i am now 248 dollars in debt and thats no including the cell phone i now have to pay for on my own.. nor the car insurance and gas i will soon have to pay... i have 567 dollars in the bank as of this second... my dad is taking all of that for camp and i still owe some 20 dollars on top of that.. this sucks.
and go figure how the conversation opened... "You know kara elizabeth your whole lifestyle changed back when you quit soccer" lets say that my response was not plesent but my mom agreed cause i kindly told my dad "If this conversation is fucking opening with that yet again i am out of here" no one said anything i told him to ground me handed him my cell phone threw my driver stuff at him and grabbed my purse and went upstairs. i made it too like the 6th stair where he came around the corner and started SCREAMING at me. how im not good enough, im not college material, cant sing, cant play piano, how i am the only child they had problems with, how im throw away everything thats good for me, i cant even remeber mostly cause i just sat and cried cause my mom and dad started fighitng and they never do that. My mom looked at me and see look its always my fault when u mess up, im sorry im the bad mother and walked away. my dad then chimes in with look what u caused everyones yelling because of you. it sucked and it still does i cried for prb 3 hours...
anymore i feel like shit nothings been going right im getting jipped on life, it is how i feel..and here i go crying again.. and it sucks cause i dont know what to do... my dad says i messed up my life so much already and that i better not wanna go to college and how if im supposed to breeze through senior year its not going to happen... hes right... im to lazy i quit when it gets hard and i wanna just go into a ball and stay there cause life sucks... ugh...
we got our report cards today. and you should know what that means. Yeah im a dumbass. i failed math. i have no excuse at all its my own fault, but it sucks ass majorly. I am supposed to take summer school which would mean one of 2 things. #1. i would not go to hilton head and i would have to pass lessman back 145 dollars to get her airare refunded. #2 no showchoir camp. well it turns out i have more than enought credits so i can retake it next school year. Thats good.... i guess? I am screwed beyond belife at this point. I have a 2.7 cum and i need to go to school at a good university.. shit i am fucked.
My parents are so pissed that my crephew for my senior year is a 11 the time of your life for me is going to suck... i have to now pay for schowchoir camp... and they took the money out of the college acount. i am now 248 dollars in debt and thats no including the cell phone i now have to pay for on my own.. nor the car insurance and gas i will soon have to pay... i have 567 dollars in the bank as of this second... my dad is taking all of that for camp and i still owe some 20 dollars on top of that.. this sucks.
and go figure how the conversation opened... "You know kara elizabeth your whole lifestyle changed back when you quit soccer" lets say that my response was not plesent but my mom agreed cause i kindly told my dad "If this conversation is fucking opening with that yet again i am out of here" no one said anything i told him to ground me handed him my cell phone threw my driver stuff at him and grabbed my purse and went upstairs. i made it too like the 6th stair where he came around the corner and started SCREAMING at me. how im not good enough, im not college material, cant sing, cant play piano, how i am the only child they had problems with, how im throw away everything thats good for me, i cant even remeber mostly cause i just sat and cried cause my mom and dad started fighitng and they never do that. My mom looked at me and see look its always my fault when u mess up, im sorry im the bad mother and walked away. my dad then chimes in with look what u caused everyones yelling because of you. it sucked and it still does i cried for prb 3 hours...
anymore i feel like shit nothings been going right im getting jipped on life, it is how i feel..and here i go crying again.. and it sucks cause i dont know what to do... my dad says i messed up my life so much already and that i better not wanna go to college and how if im supposed to breeze through senior year its not going to happen... hes right... im to lazy i quit when it gets hard and i wanna just go into a ball and stay there cause life sucks... ugh...