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It still hurts. I keep asking if i did the right thing. The pain tells me no. But what does it know? Its been there before. Logically yes. I cut everyone out besides my close friends, people from my station and people i can talk to reguarly.
Yes, im going to be selfish and take care of myself. Maybe then i wont feel like this. Maybe i've been spreading myself too thin, worrying about other people more than myself, most of which didnt deserve such atttention. Maybe if i pull back and concentrate more on me ill be okay, and i can rebuild outward from there. This time the right way. Maybe. I know i need to stay strong.
Or maybe I'm just crazy and ill never be happy, and all i've done is make myself that much more alone.
In either case im just gonna see how it turns out. This is either going to help, or quicken my destruction. Thus far no one, nor the world has given me reason to feel different.
Yes, im going to be selfish and take care of myself. Maybe then i wont feel like this. Maybe i've been spreading myself too thin, worrying about other people more than myself, most of which didnt deserve such atttention. Maybe if i pull back and concentrate more on me ill be okay, and i can rebuild outward from there. This time the right way. Maybe. I know i need to stay strong.
Or maybe I'm just crazy and ill never be happy, and all i've done is make myself that much more alone.
In either case im just gonna see how it turns out. This is either going to help, or quicken my destruction. Thus far no one, nor the world has given me reason to feel different.