In case anyone has been wondering what's been going on with me, here's the short update:
I lost my baby November 9th. She'd lived a number of years with kidney & bladder issues, but she just couldn't do it anymore. Her little 8lb body just gave out. I am totally lost without her and feel completely alone.
Two weeks after that, I slipped on black ice and have been in continuous pain since then. I was taking Mel's dad to his dentist when it happened. The dentist blew me off and it's been a battle since then to just exist. I spend most nights in an office chair, maybe getting 2-3 hours of sleep in trying to sleep for 9. I walk like I'm 90, when I can walk at all.
I am so over everything. There are no words.