the worst way to miss someone
have you ever noticed the worst way to miss someone is when they are sitting right next to you? That feeling sucks. Today started out well though. I woke up very happy, rested, content, and overall peaceful. Took a shower, and went to apply for a job at the court house. Talked to my mom on the phone, and priscilla.
went to the interview with target, got hired, I start on tuesday. I talked to priscilla again, hoping to celebrate, but she was more interested in doing her own thing. Which was fine, I ended up going to the mall with my mom. we spent some money we probably shouldn't have, talked like we needed to. All the important stuff I felt she was not interested in since we moved in with Cindy. But she still cares. I felt really good when I left the mall. More secure with her than I have been in a long time.
The rest of the day kinda sucked. due to shitty circumstances, out of both of our control (or at least one party's opinion) and to prevent our hearts from being ripped out, or other catastrophies we ended it. I am not a happy camper. All the other alternatives were discussed of course, but, to no avail. what is done is done. If you guys could see the color of my eyes you would know.
Anthony called today, he is back in town, I only talked to him briefly. he called yesterday actually. but, he drove down, his brother is with him. I told him I was over at Jon's so we cut it short. I would have talked to him tonight to vent, but I was uninterested in being harrased in any sort of way. wether it is "I told you so" "wasent' meant to be" "r u single now" whatever. And I knew that is what I would get so I came home.
only the future can tell, but right now, it sucks.
"what is popular is not always right, what is right is not always popular"
nick
went to the interview with target, got hired, I start on tuesday. I talked to priscilla again, hoping to celebrate, but she was more interested in doing her own thing. Which was fine, I ended up going to the mall with my mom. we spent some money we probably shouldn't have, talked like we needed to. All the important stuff I felt she was not interested in since we moved in with Cindy. But she still cares. I felt really good when I left the mall. More secure with her than I have been in a long time.
The rest of the day kinda sucked. due to shitty circumstances, out of both of our control (or at least one party's opinion) and to prevent our hearts from being ripped out, or other catastrophies we ended it. I am not a happy camper. All the other alternatives were discussed of course, but, to no avail. what is done is done. If you guys could see the color of my eyes you would know.
Anthony called today, he is back in town, I only talked to him briefly. he called yesterday actually. but, he drove down, his brother is with him. I told him I was over at Jon's so we cut it short. I would have talked to him tonight to vent, but I was uninterested in being harrased in any sort of way. wether it is "I told you so" "wasent' meant to be" "r u single now" whatever. And I knew that is what I would get so I came home.
only the future can tell, but right now, it sucks.
"what is popular is not always right, what is right is not always popular"
nick