not to be a downer but......
lets see, today i got ripped up by my dad. basically hes mad at me for tellin my brother to suck a dick and to fuck off in front of his girlfriend, understandable. i do regret it, but i dont regret getting him upset. i regret the way in which i got him upset, it was classless. next time my family messes with me, ill deal with it more coothly. so my dad goes off on things that he EXPECTS me to do. he wantss me to find a job(workin on it), fix the closet door i broke(did it), find a car door and replace it(in the process), appologize to my brother and all present parties for the cussing(will do once they get home), go for anger management courses after getting a shave, haircut and wardrobe makeover(not a chance)
what i will do, however, is seclude myself from my family. i dont run from problems, i confront them. i confront every one of them except for this one. this is a problem, this of course being my dislike and distrust for my family, that i refuse to contionue confronting. it has ceased to be worth my time. it is going nowhere. they like their dictatorship and their little games of the head and heart? so be it! i accept the challenge. yeah my dad made some reasonable requests, as well as some unreasonaable ones. i will honor the logical ones and disregard the illogical. then it will be my turn. my turn to decide where this family bond goes, or creases to gg. all in time.
Heres something though, im going to try something here, im going to express my anger without cussing. yeah i know what everyones saying, but i really want to challenge myself here. so we will see how that goes. i can just see that there are other ways of handling upsetting matters than throwing around senseless cuss words that lose meaning after awhile.....they have.
im tired of my whole family barring my sister. My brother and father are getting along and me and my father arent. me and my mother never have either. and now me and my brother arent, so i am pulling back from this family. i love them, yes. honor them, i have to, even though i havent been. respect them? No. Like them? no. i dont mind being the social pariah, i always have been on some level or another.
they want me to take these classes for anger management, aint happenin. im 19, they can shove it. Im not angry, i just dont like many people. Im not antisocial, i just dont prefer socializing with every bouncy happy moron in my immediate field of vision. yeah ive been a bit stressed for a month or so now, but thats natural. i have to learn how to deal with stress more efficiently, yes. and i will. i will not however change who i am, for them. i will not change what i am to be who they believe me to be. ill start anger managment classes as soon as they start taking reality managment classes. i do realize that there are pressing matters that need to be sorted out in my life that are not progressing as quickly as i would like them to namely 1) a job 2) fixing my car 3) my paycheck up until today 4)college financing 5) college shopping 6) fixing my computer 7) my severe lack of breathing room in a house that my parents claim is to big(i swear they must want to hear and smell it every time i break wind!)
goin college shopping soon which is good. then i get to leave this house and be on my own for awhile, which is also good. ack! i really do hope this life works itself out soon. oh yeah, and dont even get me started on the girl situation, cuz thats about as pretty as my grandmothers dentures falling out into her soup!
what i will do, however, is seclude myself from my family. i dont run from problems, i confront them. i confront every one of them except for this one. this is a problem, this of course being my dislike and distrust for my family, that i refuse to contionue confronting. it has ceased to be worth my time. it is going nowhere. they like their dictatorship and their little games of the head and heart? so be it! i accept the challenge. yeah my dad made some reasonable requests, as well as some unreasonaable ones. i will honor the logical ones and disregard the illogical. then it will be my turn. my turn to decide where this family bond goes, or creases to gg. all in time.
Heres something though, im going to try something here, im going to express my anger without cussing. yeah i know what everyones saying, but i really want to challenge myself here. so we will see how that goes. i can just see that there are other ways of handling upsetting matters than throwing around senseless cuss words that lose meaning after awhile.....they have.
im tired of my whole family barring my sister. My brother and father are getting along and me and my father arent. me and my mother never have either. and now me and my brother arent, so i am pulling back from this family. i love them, yes. honor them, i have to, even though i havent been. respect them? No. Like them? no. i dont mind being the social pariah, i always have been on some level or another.
they want me to take these classes for anger management, aint happenin. im 19, they can shove it. Im not angry, i just dont like many people. Im not antisocial, i just dont prefer socializing with every bouncy happy moron in my immediate field of vision. yeah ive been a bit stressed for a month or so now, but thats natural. i have to learn how to deal with stress more efficiently, yes. and i will. i will not however change who i am, for them. i will not change what i am to be who they believe me to be. ill start anger managment classes as soon as they start taking reality managment classes. i do realize that there are pressing matters that need to be sorted out in my life that are not progressing as quickly as i would like them to namely 1) a job 2) fixing my car 3) my paycheck up until today 4)college financing 5) college shopping 6) fixing my computer 7) my severe lack of breathing room in a house that my parents claim is to big(i swear they must want to hear and smell it every time i break wind!)
goin college shopping soon which is good. then i get to leave this house and be on my own for awhile, which is also good. ack! i really do hope this life works itself out soon. oh yeah, and dont even get me started on the girl situation, cuz thats about as pretty as my grandmothers dentures falling out into her soup!