Start Again Buttercup.
Hm, it's been awhile since I've updated.
A lot's been going on with school, work, and personal stuff. My perspective on things has been shaken up a bit. It's not really something I've discussed with anyone because quite simply it isn't anyone's business, and I don't expect anyone to understand. It's my life and I'll do what I want with it. Life is too short to be consumed with everyone else's opinions, and as Rhett Butler once put it, "With enough courage, you can do without a reputation."
And that's what I want to focus on now--having enough courage to go after what I want. There's not enough time to be dishonest with myself or others, and there's certainly not enough time to inhibit myself for fear of failure. If I can just focus on my goals, I can get there, I can get to where I want to be, where holidays are fun and families aren't a burden. I want to be where only those I want to touch me can touch me, to live in a self-defined world, where fishies and cats and doggies are precious and only those I permit to be in my life will be in my life.
I've been pretty ambitious lately, and I don't expect to slow down. I've a voracious appetite for opportunity. I'm looking for volunteer work that allows me to really apply my skills, particularly with public relations. I don't know how to describe it, I just have this growing confidence with myself and have a desire to really show people how good I am at what I do. I've never been this confident before about my future. I see so many possibilities where I used to see so little, and now I know that the only thing preventing me from being successful is being afraid of it . It's so easy to become afraid of fucking something up that you lose sight of how to make the most of it.
I scored an independent study with a world-renowned scholar and tomorrow I have an interview with the president of the university. I'm excited about both.
A lot's been going on with school, work, and personal stuff. My perspective on things has been shaken up a bit. It's not really something I've discussed with anyone because quite simply it isn't anyone's business, and I don't expect anyone to understand. It's my life and I'll do what I want with it. Life is too short to be consumed with everyone else's opinions, and as Rhett Butler once put it, "With enough courage, you can do without a reputation."
And that's what I want to focus on now--having enough courage to go after what I want. There's not enough time to be dishonest with myself or others, and there's certainly not enough time to inhibit myself for fear of failure. If I can just focus on my goals, I can get there, I can get to where I want to be, where holidays are fun and families aren't a burden. I want to be where only those I want to touch me can touch me, to live in a self-defined world, where fishies and cats and doggies are precious and only those I permit to be in my life will be in my life.
I've been pretty ambitious lately, and I don't expect to slow down. I've a voracious appetite for opportunity. I'm looking for volunteer work that allows me to really apply my skills, particularly with public relations. I don't know how to describe it, I just have this growing confidence with myself and have a desire to really show people how good I am at what I do. I've never been this confident before about my future. I see so many possibilities where I used to see so little, and now I know that the only thing preventing me from being successful is being afraid of it . It's so easy to become afraid of fucking something up that you lose sight of how to make the most of it.
I scored an independent study with a world-renowned scholar and tomorrow I have an interview with the president of the university. I'm excited about both.