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I have mapped out my life. I'm not sure whether it's a good plan, or one that will miserably fail, but this is it.
My number one goal is to leave this God foresaken country I'm in right now, Kuwait. Not that it's a nasty country or anything, but it restricts my life style. Big time. Homosexuality, is viewed as a disease, actually, it's not viewed at all, society does not acknowledge the fact that homosexuality exists...Knowing that the underground gay society is massive. In order for me to do that (leave the country, that is), I either have to study abroad, which is out of the question at the moment, due to my loving mother and her infamous words: A girl's place is at home with her husband, what will people think when we send you off, like you have a disease...You won't ever get married. (That's a rough translation of what it sounds like in Arabic) My mother, bless her heart, is in major denial when it comes to my sexuality. I can't make it more obvious to her if I tried, but alas, she only believes what she chooses to.
In order for me to leave, I have to get married, and since I have no intentions of doing that any time soon, if ever, I decided to marry my cousin. Yes, my first cousin. Him, being an open bisexual, and me, being 105% gay. It's a way to salvage us both, we have made it clear though, as soon as we land in the States, we'll both go our seperate ways, may be get a divorce, who knows?
So this is what it has come to. Where I'm from, a girl is considered to be a spinster if she's not married by the age of 24. I'm the black sheep in my family, since I have turned down 5 men, with perfectly good proposals, by the ancient age of 18. Interestingly sad isn't it?
You gotta do what you gotta do, don't you?
My number one goal is to leave this God foresaken country I'm in right now, Kuwait. Not that it's a nasty country or anything, but it restricts my life style. Big time. Homosexuality, is viewed as a disease, actually, it's not viewed at all, society does not acknowledge the fact that homosexuality exists...Knowing that the underground gay society is massive. In order for me to do that (leave the country, that is), I either have to study abroad, which is out of the question at the moment, due to my loving mother and her infamous words: A girl's place is at home with her husband, what will people think when we send you off, like you have a disease...You won't ever get married. (That's a rough translation of what it sounds like in Arabic) My mother, bless her heart, is in major denial when it comes to my sexuality. I can't make it more obvious to her if I tried, but alas, she only believes what she chooses to.
In order for me to leave, I have to get married, and since I have no intentions of doing that any time soon, if ever, I decided to marry my cousin. Yes, my first cousin. Him, being an open bisexual, and me, being 105% gay. It's a way to salvage us both, we have made it clear though, as soon as we land in the States, we'll both go our seperate ways, may be get a divorce, who knows?
So this is what it has come to. Where I'm from, a girl is considered to be a spinster if she's not married by the age of 24. I'm the black sheep in my family, since I have turned down 5 men, with perfectly good proposals, by the ancient age of 18. Interestingly sad isn't it?
You gotta do what you gotta do, don't you?