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wow..its been a long time since ive written in here..ive neglected it quite a bit....but yea...i just kinda needed somewhere to write ....u know me venting is good
i work alot...
my heart has been smashed and drained....love hurts
my ruby died a lil ago...i got a new rat...her names esmerelda
i miss him
i hate him
i love him
fuck him
im agry at him
i wish he was here
im hating the thoughts running through my head
im goin to tampa tommorrow...ital b fun i hope...
goin to a country concert w/ ashley...if we get too board at the concert we will b able to sell t shirts n such in the stands.thtel b interesting...im exited
n thn im goin to bush gardens on sunday...thtell prolly b a blast...i hope
broken hearted, why did you do this
you told me you loved me
if so how could you go through w/ this?
why did you lie to me?!?
how could you do it?
how can you call yourself a man when u dont have the balls to tell me ur throught w/ me
im not worth your time ne more
you come to my house...dont want me to know your there....
your just there to get ur buddy, u could have done it then
but instead you left me waiting
waiting wondering feeling like shit
like was i wrong? was i a bitch?
now i see clearly you hurt me so bad
u did me so wrong
your a fucking ass
i cant believe you did this too me
cus why now you have a job you dont have time
im too clingy!
your outa ur mind!
god fucking damit you fucking ass
i have no respect at all for you
you cant grow balls n tell me its through???
you have to fucking hide n lie
n wat hope i just relize
im stupid if i dont know its over huh?
ya i understand i knew it was
but when i mentioned you got all highped up
you got all mad tht i would thnk tht
well holy shit
look at this
it was true
i i told you i fucking knew
wat you dident want it to b like tht? is tht why?
you wanted me to fucking cry
ya well you got ur fucking wish
i cried my goddam eyes out every night
you fucking lived me! n thn u were gone!
i delt w/ it fine untill you were done
u finally stoped coming around u dident want me ne more
the way you did this is fucking cowerdley
its bull shit tht u just dident want to hurt me!
u just dident have the back bone to comfront me!
i still love you ..n i hate tht i do
i dont know why i ever fucking loved you
but i did..n i still do....
but i know ur not worth the pain you put me through
the agony n tears i cried for you
the anger ive nver felt for ne one
the way you betrayed me
.....i know ull nver read this......im kina glad..i dont even remember really wat i wrote....
probably thngs i wouldent want you to know ....i would never want you to have the satisfaction in knowing you hurt me this bad...or tht i even shed as many tears as i did
i dont want you to know how many nights i waited around for you......hoping ud possibly show up
or how often i thought n now still thnk of you.....
ill prolly always thnk of you... but ill get over you..im already on my way
at least now i can have a life agian....like i miss hanging out w/ all my friends..i gave up soo many people just to always be around u
i remember the one time i went n hung out w/ amanda n u dident wana come...how frekin mad you got at me for chillin w/ her n not being w/ you
i saw you every day almost all of it
well ima stop....im good on venting for a bit now
i gota b up n ready for tampa tommorrow im leaving at 7:30am....
i know ill have ...ill b around a bunch of rednecks n ill probably meet alot of cool people at the hotel...(hardrock hotel n casino) tht sounds like a fun name..lol..
well tootles lj it was good to vent
i work alot...
my heart has been smashed and drained....love hurts
my ruby died a lil ago...i got a new rat...her names esmerelda
i miss him
i hate him
i love him
fuck him
im agry at him
i wish he was here
im hating the thoughts running through my head
im goin to tampa tommorrow...ital b fun i hope...
goin to a country concert w/ ashley...if we get too board at the concert we will b able to sell t shirts n such in the stands.thtel b interesting...im exited
n thn im goin to bush gardens on sunday...thtell prolly b a blast...i hope
broken hearted, why did you do this
you told me you loved me
if so how could you go through w/ this?
why did you lie to me?!?
how could you do it?
how can you call yourself a man when u dont have the balls to tell me ur throught w/ me
im not worth your time ne more
you come to my house...dont want me to know your there....
your just there to get ur buddy, u could have done it then
but instead you left me waiting
waiting wondering feeling like shit
like was i wrong? was i a bitch?
now i see clearly you hurt me so bad
u did me so wrong
your a fucking ass
i cant believe you did this too me
cus why now you have a job you dont have time
im too clingy!
your outa ur mind!
god fucking damit you fucking ass
i have no respect at all for you
you cant grow balls n tell me its through???
you have to fucking hide n lie
n wat hope i just relize
im stupid if i dont know its over huh?
ya i understand i knew it was
but when i mentioned you got all highped up
you got all mad tht i would thnk tht
well holy shit
look at this
it was true
i i told you i fucking knew
wat you dident want it to b like tht? is tht why?
you wanted me to fucking cry
ya well you got ur fucking wish
i cried my goddam eyes out every night
you fucking lived me! n thn u were gone!
i delt w/ it fine untill you were done
u finally stoped coming around u dident want me ne more
the way you did this is fucking cowerdley
its bull shit tht u just dident want to hurt me!
u just dident have the back bone to comfront me!
i still love you ..n i hate tht i do
i dont know why i ever fucking loved you
but i did..n i still do....
but i know ur not worth the pain you put me through
the agony n tears i cried for you
the anger ive nver felt for ne one
the way you betrayed me
.....i know ull nver read this......im kina glad..i dont even remember really wat i wrote....
probably thngs i wouldent want you to know ....i would never want you to have the satisfaction in knowing you hurt me this bad...or tht i even shed as many tears as i did
i dont want you to know how many nights i waited around for you......hoping ud possibly show up
or how often i thought n now still thnk of you.....
ill prolly always thnk of you... but ill get over you..im already on my way
at least now i can have a life agian....like i miss hanging out w/ all my friends..i gave up soo many people just to always be around u
i remember the one time i went n hung out w/ amanda n u dident wana come...how frekin mad you got at me for chillin w/ her n not being w/ you
i saw you every day almost all of it
well ima stop....im good on venting for a bit now
i gota b up n ready for tampa tommorrow im leaving at 7:30am....
i know ill have ...ill b around a bunch of rednecks n ill probably meet alot of cool people at the hotel...(hardrock hotel n casino) tht sounds like a fun name..lol..
well tootles lj it was good to vent