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I don't think my roommate wants me here anymore. I'm such a nice person, and for some reason that irritates people. Some people don't want you to ask about their day, hear you laugh at yourself, or say hi. I admit I have been a hermit retreating to my room the past couple of weeks because I have been ultra depressed. I could be sending off a few different vibes. I could be inadvertently relaying the definition of an imbalanced loner, and while thats true to some extent, I genuinely like to be around people...I just disassociate with people who's energy I can't handle...which is probably my delusion attributed to the imbalance. So, maybe she's right there. However, my instinct delivers me to the belief that she thinks I'm a snob, where as "my nice" is passive aggressive or in the pity sector. This could be why she shrugs me off. Or, I can take my EGO out of all of this and maybe she has come to realize that she likes to live alone. I could be suffocating her chi or exercising it...either way its uncomfortable for her. In any case, I can feel that I am past my welcome.