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I've lost my everything. I have been lucky enough to spend a year of my life fighting for the most incredible woman I've ever known. I have been lucky enough to spend another year of my life living with her. And now I've spent a year losing her. The brightest, most beautiful light in the universe did more for my life than I could have ever imagined. She changed me. She made me feel worthy. She made me feel beautiful. She made me feel love. She gave me the happiest days of my whole life. The loveliest moments of my 21 years have been spent in the quiet company of her heartbeat. I've never felt a stronger force than the drive to love her.
I've lost my everything. I've forfeited heaven in the name of my own pathetic selfishness. My incessant need for attention and my disgusting lack of courage. I'm weak and I'm careless and maybe I never deserved her in the first place.
I don't know what to do without her. I don't know where to go. I don't know what to look at. I don't know what to think. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to do anything without her there to guide me. I don't know how to love anything but her. There is no more light. Nothing has color. Nothing has meaning.
I've never felt regret more than I do right now. I've never had fiercer desire to get back to something I've left behind. Why did I ever leave you behind, baby?
Please, God, bring her back to me.
I've lost my everything. I've forfeited heaven in the name of my own pathetic selfishness. My incessant need for attention and my disgusting lack of courage. I'm weak and I'm careless and maybe I never deserved her in the first place.
I don't know what to do without her. I don't know where to go. I don't know what to look at. I don't know what to think. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to do anything without her there to guide me. I don't know how to love anything but her. There is no more light. Nothing has color. Nothing has meaning.
I've never felt regret more than I do right now. I've never had fiercer desire to get back to something I've left behind. Why did I ever leave you behind, baby?
Please, God, bring her back to me.