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Dec 07, 2005 13:22

So I went to the doctor earlier.. the pills are still staying with me, the ensure is definately gone and I have gained the weight i needed to gain. Then the doctor started trying to make me feel better about how this is why they wanted to take me out of school so I would focus only on my weight and me being sick and eventually get better... I still have anemia but we're seeing how it goes... I'm pretty sure my mum talked to the doctor to try and change the image I have stored of her, make him tlak to me in other words...

The funny part:
Lo que mas se nota es mi cara porque it gets really sucked in when i get skinny and gets filled right back up cuando empiezo a "engordar" (jaja, pero eso puede cambair de un dia pa otro fascinantemente), tambien el pecho (no solo EL PECHO pero cuanto se ven los huesos y todo, las piernas UFF demasiado. He was amazed, while studying the stomach (I do not understand how doctors can check twenty gazillion patients naked and not feel dirty by the end of the day.... seriously.. ive been thinking about it so much.. I mean.. I wanted to slap him just because i was imagining what couldve been going on in his head... that perv) because my stomach, aparently, stays flat (solo que se le forma una acumulacion minima de un no-se-que que mientras el doctor me lo explicaba queria vomitar mas que nada en este mundo.. y al momento siento la misma sensacion... :S) y que mas bien me salian "rollitos" a los lados.. the first thing i thought was "LOVE HANDLES?!". Of course I was like "Yo conosco mi cuerpo, lo que como se va directo al pecho, de vez en cuando alla atras, nunca se queda en el estomago en verdad, menos a los lados!!" and then he wanted to show me and shit. In some way i could see it and i just wanted to laugh.. the thing that makes it not noticeable are the bones que sobresalen de por alli; me dijo que eso se quedara asi por un tiempo, ya que antes no lo tenia, porque perdi tanto peso {no tienen.. idea.. i always lied about my weight, i still said a pretty bad number of kilos, but it was a lie all the time...this has been one of the only times where i justify me lying people im sorry} so algunas cosas tomaran mas tiempo, como esos huesos que de atractivo no tiene mucho.

love handles JAJAJAJA. (ay lana i miss u tons tons tonsssssss)

pero tengo qeu expresar lo feliz que estoy por estar al tanto del peso que ya deberia de estar. no more ensure bitches.

ahora: hablar con jr. sobre que mierda esta pasando e ir a doñas despues con victoria, dearest victoria.... join us (si se puede).. pants?

(im not wasting any time ah..bah)
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