(no subject)
You’re like the rain which falls quietly from the heavens onto the earth, because you help me grow. You support me with your kindness. You’re quiet like the rain which falls gently down from over burdened clouds.
And you’re constant: you were always there, even when Ephraim was not.
You were like a brother to me, the way you always looked out for me and protected me. I suppose I had a crush on you, but it was merely childish fancy, not anything serious. I simply desired to know more about you, so I asked questions when I could. You were like a pleasant jigsaw to me and I wanted to fit all the pieces together.
You were a brother to me, until that fateful day when Renais fell. And you protected me and shielded me with your sword. It was then, as you fought Valter, as you rode away with me, that I felt something for you.
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I miss you now, I really do, I keep on thinking that you will always be by my side and still are, though I can feel that your presence is not actually here, and I have to remind myself that Forde is here, not you. I would be able to tell the difference, you hang like an overladen cloud above me, ready to guide and support me should I need it. You’re quiet but forceful.
I remember thinking that having a body guard would be horrible, that it would be a nuisance and that Ephraim and I weren’t going to be able to play the games that we liked.
I thought I would instantly hate you.
When I first met you, I saw a young man, fresh from adolescent, striving to be a man. I remember thinking that you were very handsome, I especially liked your eyes. They were such a pretty colour. Had I been 4 or 5, I would have reached out to touch them, but I, being 12, knew better than to do that.
I shouldn’t have thought of that: it’s made me nostalgic. And I don’t want to feel nostalgic, it won’t do me any good. It won’t bring you here to my side.
How are you? How is that wound doing?
I need you, I never knew how much I needed you until you went away from me. And not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. And I can’t believe that I took you for granted.
I will never take you for granted again.
And when you come back, I will tell you. I will tell you how much you mean to me.
And I’ll never leave your side.
This is a chapter which I will post in Forbidden Apple - changing the name, of course. Saffiremoon21's Realisation inspired me to write this- the piece was called 'Like the Rain' and she is right -he is like the rain!