incite
For the past three weeks, I have been feeling a little strange.
It started when I woke up one morning with an incredibly bloated stomach that didn't go away for 3 days. Then the head aches started. Ever since then, I have been more than preoccupied with the state of pains in my body.
I know it sounds strange, which is why I did research on it.
At first with these pains, I was worried. But I concluded that these pains, along with the loss of appetite and being unable to sleep, was a result of midterm stress. However, as the pains kept changing every few days, I realized that perhaps these pains were a result of my preoccupation with pains.
Now I have discovered something quite miraculous. I am able to control my pains and my appetite. For example, if I have a pain in my stomach, I can intensify it to the point of feeling nausous. I can also transfer pain. For example, if I have a pain in my stomach I can transfer it to be a pain in my knee joint. Or, if I don't want pain, I can make myself feel uncomfortable, itchy all over and shaky/panicky (although, I don't really like this one, because it makes it impossible to concentrate on anything at all). I can also create pain, just by concentrating on a body part and the type of pain I desire.
As a result of a lot of these sensations, I have lost almost all desire to eat. However, I am learning to concentrate this as well. For example, I have been able to create the illusion that my stomach is completely empty or completely full.
The only thing that I am having trouble controlling is when I think about it. As a result, it's become something that consumes my thoughts when I don't have anything more interesting to think about. Sometimes changing what I'm thinking about can be a challenge, especially when I'm in the itchy mode.
I don't know why this fasinates me. It's just kind of cool. It's not that I like to give myself pain or makes me feel uncomfortable. But it's a new sense of contol. Maybe, one day I'll learn how to use this control to control my mood.
It started when I woke up one morning with an incredibly bloated stomach that didn't go away for 3 days. Then the head aches started. Ever since then, I have been more than preoccupied with the state of pains in my body.
I know it sounds strange, which is why I did research on it.
At first with these pains, I was worried. But I concluded that these pains, along with the loss of appetite and being unable to sleep, was a result of midterm stress. However, as the pains kept changing every few days, I realized that perhaps these pains were a result of my preoccupation with pains.
Now I have discovered something quite miraculous. I am able to control my pains and my appetite. For example, if I have a pain in my stomach, I can intensify it to the point of feeling nausous. I can also transfer pain. For example, if I have a pain in my stomach I can transfer it to be a pain in my knee joint. Or, if I don't want pain, I can make myself feel uncomfortable, itchy all over and shaky/panicky (although, I don't really like this one, because it makes it impossible to concentrate on anything at all). I can also create pain, just by concentrating on a body part and the type of pain I desire.
As a result of a lot of these sensations, I have lost almost all desire to eat. However, I am learning to concentrate this as well. For example, I have been able to create the illusion that my stomach is completely empty or completely full.
The only thing that I am having trouble controlling is when I think about it. As a result, it's become something that consumes my thoughts when I don't have anything more interesting to think about. Sometimes changing what I'm thinking about can be a challenge, especially when I'm in the itchy mode.
I don't know why this fasinates me. It's just kind of cool. It's not that I like to give myself pain or makes me feel uncomfortable. But it's a new sense of contol. Maybe, one day I'll learn how to use this control to control my mood.