Analyze this
Tonight at work I had to take this leadership assessment for a seminar I have to go to next week. Only it seemed more like a psychological test than a leadership test. In Part 1 I had to look at four words or phrases and pick the one that is most like me, and then the one that is least like me. In Part 2 I had to rank 6 things from what I like best or was most important to me to what I liked least or what was least important. And in Part 3 I had to take two groups of 18 statements and rank them - the first group were what was most important to least important, the second group were phrases that describe yourself to rank from most true to least. After I did all of this, I get this screen that said, "There seems to be some inconsistencies with your answers in Part 3 - are you sure these are the answers that best describe your feelings?" So what the fuck does that mean??? It probably means I'm a psychological mess, and when I get to this seminar next week there'll be some representatives from the local funny farm waiting to take me away. There's probably someone analyzing my results as we speak, his eyes bugging out of his head in panic, alerting my boss to the powderkeg on the verge that I am. So if you don't hear from me again, you'll know I'm in a straightjacket at the state hospital for the insane.
I gave my speech on The Black Death yesterday in class. Let's just say I make a much better writer and researcher than speaker. I had great PowerPoint slides, a detailed outline, notes, and I took Monday off to prepare it all and rehearse. But I felt so flustered when I had to speak. It's not that I'm afraid of speaking in public, not at all. I just lost concentration, and then got out of order with my note cards (which we were required to have, I do much better when I don't have any notes, and just use my PowerPoint slides as a reference). I skipped a whole point I wanted to make, too. Not that this class would have noticed - for as crappy as I thought I did, I at least had a coherent topic, with points and subpoints that were in a logical order. There were at least 3 people in the class that I couldn't even tell you what their speech topic was. Next week we have the second of our three big speeches due - the demonstration speech. I'm doing mine on how to start an IV. Hopefully no one will use this knowledge to start a heroin habit.
I'm still trying to make up my mind about what direction to go in several issues. Australia or home renovation? Infertility treatment or adopt? Should I get lipo/tummy tuck? They're actually all related - if I decide to go with infertility treatments and actually do get pregnant, then it'd be stupid to get a tummy tuck before that. And if we were to have a baby or adopt, we would need to do some renovations to make a nursery. And if we adopt, we have considered a foreign adoption, so we might need the money for travel and adoption fees. Or for infertility treatments, as most of it isn't covered under insurance. I just don't know. But I do know I better make some decisions soon or I'll be too old to do any of it.
I gave my speech on The Black Death yesterday in class. Let's just say I make a much better writer and researcher than speaker. I had great PowerPoint slides, a detailed outline, notes, and I took Monday off to prepare it all and rehearse. But I felt so flustered when I had to speak. It's not that I'm afraid of speaking in public, not at all. I just lost concentration, and then got out of order with my note cards (which we were required to have, I do much better when I don't have any notes, and just use my PowerPoint slides as a reference). I skipped a whole point I wanted to make, too. Not that this class would have noticed - for as crappy as I thought I did, I at least had a coherent topic, with points and subpoints that were in a logical order. There were at least 3 people in the class that I couldn't even tell you what their speech topic was. Next week we have the second of our three big speeches due - the demonstration speech. I'm doing mine on how to start an IV. Hopefully no one will use this knowledge to start a heroin habit.
I'm still trying to make up my mind about what direction to go in several issues. Australia or home renovation? Infertility treatment or adopt? Should I get lipo/tummy tuck? They're actually all related - if I decide to go with infertility treatments and actually do get pregnant, then it'd be stupid to get a tummy tuck before that. And if we were to have a baby or adopt, we would need to do some renovations to make a nursery. And if we adopt, we have considered a foreign adoption, so we might need the money for travel and adoption fees. Or for infertility treatments, as most of it isn't covered under insurance. I just don't know. But I do know I better make some decisions soon or I'll be too old to do any of it.