december already?!
Here's the hole I'm in.
I've decided to stay at Belmont. I should finish something I start, for once. I should stop running away from everything that's scary. I'm staying.
However....I still have the same feelings about my major....I don't knowwhat to do about that. I might just finish it anyways. I don't know what else I'd do. I don't know what else I'd be good at.
And of course, he plays a pretty big factor in this. After having such a great break I'm (of course; I wouldn't be me if I wasn't doing this) rethinking my decision. Well, doubting. I'll at least stay next semester. Who knows what else. I don't even know what assignments are due when, what date it is, what clothes I'm wearing....I never have any idea what's going on. I'm completely oblivious.
"I love you I love you I love you." I want to say it just like that too. Emphasis, meaning, truth. Very important to me.
I wish I didn't always have something sad to write about. I wish I had happy stuff to update on. I wish this would work out and I could gush about it forever, but I have a feeling everyone's predictions will be true and I'll be sad again. Who knows though, you can't really see the future.
Gah back to school work. I really wasn't kidding when I said I hated school. I really do hate school. I love to learn, I just hate SCHOOL. f*n A.
-me.
I've decided to stay at Belmont. I should finish something I start, for once. I should stop running away from everything that's scary. I'm staying.
However....I still have the same feelings about my major....I don't knowwhat to do about that. I might just finish it anyways. I don't know what else I'd do. I don't know what else I'd be good at.
And of course, he plays a pretty big factor in this. After having such a great break I'm (of course; I wouldn't be me if I wasn't doing this) rethinking my decision. Well, doubting. I'll at least stay next semester. Who knows what else. I don't even know what assignments are due when, what date it is, what clothes I'm wearing....I never have any idea what's going on. I'm completely oblivious.
"I love you I love you I love you." I want to say it just like that too. Emphasis, meaning, truth. Very important to me.
I wish I didn't always have something sad to write about. I wish I had happy stuff to update on. I wish this would work out and I could gush about it forever, but I have a feeling everyone's predictions will be true and I'll be sad again. Who knows though, you can't really see the future.
Gah back to school work. I really wasn't kidding when I said I hated school. I really do hate school. I love to learn, I just hate SCHOOL. f*n A.
-me.