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this is to everyone,
If I've said anything mean to any of you, please understand that I'm having some form of mental breakdown, and I go into these crazy depressed crying fits and lash out at everyone. I apologize to all of you.
I know what's wrong with me, it's just a matter of solving it now. Yes, my 'family' has disowned me, because I have emotional problems which they don't want to put up with, because another family member is going through similar ordeals. Dad is now going insane or something, and blaming his problems, on my problems, adding to his problems. So I have all this pressure on me, on top of trying really really fucking hard to be a nice person, and I just can't do it. Because I still have that feeling deep down, that I've failed. And I keep hearing things, and refuse to believe them, because I know a certain person never would have done certain things. So I'm sorry if I've gotten mad at any of you, for getting mad at me. It's not even a love thing, it's a 'the one person i care more about than anything, while my world is falling apart, doesnt give a fuck' kind of thing, and then being accused of not caring when all I ever did was care, ices the cake.
I'll stop rambling, and maybe stop making updates on this thing. It's just a random form of venting.
I'm sincerely sorry to everyone, this isn't me, it can't be. Everybody breaks down at somepoint right? I'm gonna be alright?
If I've said anything mean to any of you, please understand that I'm having some form of mental breakdown, and I go into these crazy depressed crying fits and lash out at everyone. I apologize to all of you.
I know what's wrong with me, it's just a matter of solving it now. Yes, my 'family' has disowned me, because I have emotional problems which they don't want to put up with, because another family member is going through similar ordeals. Dad is now going insane or something, and blaming his problems, on my problems, adding to his problems. So I have all this pressure on me, on top of trying really really fucking hard to be a nice person, and I just can't do it. Because I still have that feeling deep down, that I've failed. And I keep hearing things, and refuse to believe them, because I know a certain person never would have done certain things. So I'm sorry if I've gotten mad at any of you, for getting mad at me. It's not even a love thing, it's a 'the one person i care more about than anything, while my world is falling apart, doesnt give a fuck' kind of thing, and then being accused of not caring when all I ever did was care, ices the cake.
I'll stop rambling, and maybe stop making updates on this thing. It's just a random form of venting.
I'm sincerely sorry to everyone, this isn't me, it can't be. Everybody breaks down at somepoint right? I'm gonna be alright?