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these fears come rushing in when i enter here
another layer on my back
a blazing fire where our glances meet
the largest feeling towering over me
faces in disguise
not a trace of desire
i long to take you to a secret place
where we could lay aside our past
we'd throw the world away with all it's pain
to shine like stars, through storm clouds and rain
go face the day
go and see new things
go face the day
but you'll remember me.....
i see a tear inside when you're turned away
another wound that i'd take back
if i could fill your heart just once and then
i'd take you now where we could live again...
it's been a bad day, couple of days, week, couple of weeks, month.....
i wish more than ever right now, that i could take back everything that i've unintentionally said and done. i wish i could erase all the emotions influencing my ghostly behaviour. but i cant. i dont know exactly what happened to me the past month. i wish i could have done/said things sooner. i just wanted everything to be wonderful. in doing so, i've painted over all i have, and cut the strings to all the blinds. there was always something i couldnt overcome. i hope i'll never be weak again.... i just wish i hadn't acted how i have recently..... i'd rather die than lose my best friend.
i sort of slept finally. please god, no more tears.