I keep finding story notes / writing notes / ??? notes in my notebooks that are in my handwriting but are kind of gibberish. I know for a fact that I was not drunk at the time, and that my mnemonic devices apparently could use some work.
zenzaan suggested that I go back to freewriting, but I doubt it'll help me much.
A random sampling:
- when you feel like pouring down, rough around
- bulk trash keep hot and when opponents adapt, change attack as much as possible
- ritual with powder, stop all ceremonies
- why nickname
- exploit, but not to destitution, decreptitude, or desperation
- the enemy never monitors until you use secret tolerances ➤ maximum difficulty.
- remade new in every moment upon the fallen world
- the slow cessation of the universe SWITCHBLADE
- level up the jam need pasta wheels
This is exactly why I avoid writing poetry. And I know for a fact that these are creative writing notes. And some I can kind of work out maybe what they're for but for the most part. No. No freaking idea.
I love and hate reading prose that makes me feel totally inadequate; I don't kid myself about my writing level, but every once in awhile I'd read something that so totally blows me away I feel an urge to burn every word I've ever written. Unfortunately, I think it's probably the case that almost all of us are hacks, in one way or another.