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I've been sitting in the dark at home, listening to Bobby Vinton, feeling all sad and unloved and thinking about making new Sims characters to torture with not letting them go to the bathroom and crap, and - well, I got a call. :)
Weirdly enough, our conversations are still weird. I think Yoseda-san must be in Naha this weekend, since he's coming to meet me himself, which is a complete first. Just like him remembering to remind me to use the chain on my door when he's pretty damned drunk, I suspect it's for my comfort and peace of mind.
I spend a lot of time trying to decode tone of voice, body language, gestures and such with people, in trying to understand what the heck is going on with them; Japan is in some ways even more challenging because it's usually a given that people won't be direct about things, so I've become incredibly paranoid that I am, in fact, unloved and unwanted. Which is mostly me being needy and stupid, but self-perception is better than self-deception. In any case, while I fake worry unreasonably about getting a cold shoulder while at the same time being childish with wanting attention, I also know in my head that they've been busy. But I pay a lot of attention to the moods of people around me (even when I can't join in on a lot of their jokes)
So yeah, I am totally unreasonably excited about tonight, and I plan to be charming and polite and awesome, as best as I can. It's the principal of the school from Nagano and their 6th grade teacher (I'm pretty sure).
Anyway I'm hoping to come back drunk and or happy. Cross your fingers for me.
Weirdly enough, our conversations are still weird. I think Yoseda-san must be in Naha this weekend, since he's coming to meet me himself, which is a complete first. Just like him remembering to remind me to use the chain on my door when he's pretty damned drunk, I suspect it's for my comfort and peace of mind.
I spend a lot of time trying to decode tone of voice, body language, gestures and such with people, in trying to understand what the heck is going on with them; Japan is in some ways even more challenging because it's usually a given that people won't be direct about things, so I've become incredibly paranoid that I am, in fact, unloved and unwanted. Which is mostly me being needy and stupid, but self-perception is better than self-deception. In any case, while I fake worry unreasonably about getting a cold shoulder while at the same time being childish with wanting attention, I also know in my head that they've been busy. But I pay a lot of attention to the moods of people around me (even when I can't join in on a lot of their jokes)
So yeah, I am totally unreasonably excited about tonight, and I plan to be charming and polite and awesome, as best as I can. It's the principal of the school from Nagano and their 6th grade teacher (I'm pretty sure).
Anyway I'm hoping to come back drunk and or happy. Cross your fingers for me.