SHE KNOWS !!!!!
So I waited two days from my mom's response to my email. And so tonight, with my seven emails, two of them were hers. I read each of my other emails, and saved hers for last. I had been waiting two days from them, and still couldn't seem to read them right away, thus I pushed myself to wait even longer. When finally I had the courage to read, I did, and I know many of you are going to ask me so this is what it said:
Cory....
First, and most important, I love you..... Unconditionally.... Always have and always will.....
I want to thank you for finally being real with me.... I haven't felt this close to you in a long, long time. And, just for the record, I have felt (since high school) that you were struggling with your inner self.
At first I thought it was my fault - my lifestyle and the fact that I divorced your Dad when you were young. But after watching you closely, especially during your senior year, I had already come to the conclusion that you were either bisexual or gay. Genetics, you know! By the way, and I hope you don't mind, but which are you? :)
Like you, I have so much to write about right now.... BUT since my computer is old and sometimes boots me off right in the middle of a long email, I will need to send this one just to be sure you receive it and then I will write a "part II" and maybe even a "part III"!!!!!
Love,
Mom
Hi, Cory.... Sorry for the two-parter email but like I said, if I don't send them fairly soon after I type them, I sometimes lose them!
Where do I begin? I have so many things to ask you (yes, the "Mom" questions once again!!!) and if I ask anything that you don't want to respond to, that's okay... Your call.
And as your Mom, the first thing I have to ask (and hope to God is a big, fat YES!!!) is if you are having sex with anyone (man or woman), you are definitely and each and every single time using protection..... ? I have lost several friends to AIDS and still have one friend who is actively dying... It's an awful, ugly, inhumane way to die and totally preventable. I couldn't bear it if anything like that happened to you!
I was really glad to hear that you are still maintaining your high standards (the cocaine guy) and I know you have a good heart and a deep soul.....
Glad to hear also that Chris knows (I always thought Chris was gay...)
and that you have friends you can talk to about your life.... Now, remember, you also have me.
Number 2 question... Was Brian more than a roommate? Is that why you moved out?
One thing I must admit that worries me is the fact that now you're 21 and can go to the "bars".... I've BEEN to the bars, Cory, and that whole scene can be really ugly. I've seen people OD because someone put drugs in their drink while they were dancing; I've seen lots of fights; I've seen guys jumped and beat all to hell in the parking lot by "good 'ol boys"..... Not to mention alot (not all, true) but alot of the people who do the bar scene are players or losers...... Please be very, very careful.....
Well, I don't want to overload you all at once so I'll sign off for now...
But, just for the record, Grandma and Papa DO know about my lifestyle.... I told them both when I still lived on Montair.... They don't really understand it all and they certainly don't like it, but I'm their daughter and they love me anyway. I would prefer that you don't discuss your lifestyle with them, though; they're old and I don't know how they would react.... I hope you don't mind (?)
Take care of yourself always...... Be true to yourself always......
Work hard and reach your goals..... (aka. DEGREE FROM CSULB!) :)
I love you with all my heart!
Mom
I think everything is going to be just fine :) Thanks for everyone's support.
Cory....
First, and most important, I love you..... Unconditionally.... Always have and always will.....
I want to thank you for finally being real with me.... I haven't felt this close to you in a long, long time. And, just for the record, I have felt (since high school) that you were struggling with your inner self.
At first I thought it was my fault - my lifestyle and the fact that I divorced your Dad when you were young. But after watching you closely, especially during your senior year, I had already come to the conclusion that you were either bisexual or gay. Genetics, you know! By the way, and I hope you don't mind, but which are you? :)
Like you, I have so much to write about right now.... BUT since my computer is old and sometimes boots me off right in the middle of a long email, I will need to send this one just to be sure you receive it and then I will write a "part II" and maybe even a "part III"!!!!!
Love,
Mom
Hi, Cory.... Sorry for the two-parter email but like I said, if I don't send them fairly soon after I type them, I sometimes lose them!
Where do I begin? I have so many things to ask you (yes, the "Mom" questions once again!!!) and if I ask anything that you don't want to respond to, that's okay... Your call.
And as your Mom, the first thing I have to ask (and hope to God is a big, fat YES!!!) is if you are having sex with anyone (man or woman), you are definitely and each and every single time using protection..... ? I have lost several friends to AIDS and still have one friend who is actively dying... It's an awful, ugly, inhumane way to die and totally preventable. I couldn't bear it if anything like that happened to you!
I was really glad to hear that you are still maintaining your high standards (the cocaine guy) and I know you have a good heart and a deep soul.....
Glad to hear also that Chris knows (I always thought Chris was gay...)
and that you have friends you can talk to about your life.... Now, remember, you also have me.
Number 2 question... Was Brian more than a roommate? Is that why you moved out?
One thing I must admit that worries me is the fact that now you're 21 and can go to the "bars".... I've BEEN to the bars, Cory, and that whole scene can be really ugly. I've seen people OD because someone put drugs in their drink while they were dancing; I've seen lots of fights; I've seen guys jumped and beat all to hell in the parking lot by "good 'ol boys"..... Not to mention alot (not all, true) but alot of the people who do the bar scene are players or losers...... Please be very, very careful.....
Well, I don't want to overload you all at once so I'll sign off for now...
But, just for the record, Grandma and Papa DO know about my lifestyle.... I told them both when I still lived on Montair.... They don't really understand it all and they certainly don't like it, but I'm their daughter and they love me anyway. I would prefer that you don't discuss your lifestyle with them, though; they're old and I don't know how they would react.... I hope you don't mind (?)
Take care of yourself always...... Be true to yourself always......
Work hard and reach your goals..... (aka. DEGREE FROM CSULB!) :)
I love you with all my heart!
Mom
I think everything is going to be just fine :) Thanks for everyone's support.