love...lost...love...loss
I can't count the amount of times tears crept into my lower lids of my eyes today. Even at work, helping customers, my soul crept out, unashamed. It's lost...searching for you as I played our songs on Rhapsody over and over again...images of pearl wedding dresses, family, and a cake with you and I enwrapped with plastic on the top...
I miss you.
I am distracted by others.
I wish we were once young again, blanketed in our innocense and love.
I want heaven and to be in heaven I need you.
I pray for God to seal my heart back up if we are a part.
I feel lost.
It seems so much that I have lived this life before and made the same mistakes that I keep telling myself that I will never make again--of course I do however, and thus I still feel empty. Nothing seems real to me right now, or worth being real. My tunnel is long and dark, illuminated only by that of slumber and dreams on where I feel happy, at peace, and loved.
I need you and I know at some spot of your heart you need me. As I cry out for you in my deepest lovespell, I still know that I am distracted by the boys. For this I am sorry, apologizing more to myself that part of me wants to throw down everything in my life for you, marry you, live with you....but as history as shown i guess it is not time as I have other experiences to witness. This however has not changed my love for you.
Without you I am not complete.
Without you I am nothing other than a shell.
Without you I know nothing other than what I knew with you.
Without you nothing seems to have it's worth.
I am f
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**will you please catch me ?
I miss you.
I am distracted by others.
I wish we were once young again, blanketed in our innocense and love.
I want heaven and to be in heaven I need you.
I pray for God to seal my heart back up if we are a part.
I feel lost.
It seems so much that I have lived this life before and made the same mistakes that I keep telling myself that I will never make again--of course I do however, and thus I still feel empty. Nothing seems real to me right now, or worth being real. My tunnel is long and dark, illuminated only by that of slumber and dreams on where I feel happy, at peace, and loved.
I need you and I know at some spot of your heart you need me. As I cry out for you in my deepest lovespell, I still know that I am distracted by the boys. For this I am sorry, apologizing more to myself that part of me wants to throw down everything in my life for you, marry you, live with you....but as history as shown i guess it is not time as I have other experiences to witness. This however has not changed my love for you.
Without you I am not complete.
Without you I am nothing other than a shell.
Without you I know nothing other than what I knew with you.
Without you nothing seems to have it's worth.
I am f
a
l
l
i
n
g
**will you please catch me ?