Lie and Bye
It's just not going to work. I'm not surprised, most friendships post abrubt relationship breakup down't last very long, i'm sure there are studies on it. I'm more surprised on Angelo's actions if anything. I was fine with being friends until a couple of days ago. So Angelo calls me and during some information exchange, I come to discover he has a new roomate. Curious, I asked "who?" and of course his answer was "oh a friend." Odd I thought. Does he just not seem to remember the person's name? Right! So I asked again and got "a friend," for yet another response. Now I am neither guliable nor stupid-I knew who his roomate was by them, it was obvious on how Angelo didn't want me to know. So I asked again and got the expected answer of "Ryan," the guy that was interested in Angelo and started to break us a part. Conversation died for me as of that point, I was extremely not interested when he informed me that he had to get rid of the small baby kitten named after one of my pet names because he "couldn't take care of it." I guess all the latest partying at his apartment takes up too much time. So the next day this Ryan guys AIM pops up on my screen, come to find out it's not Ryan at all but Angelo. Okay, how immature is it to knowning use someone's AIM that you know is going to cause conflict and IM your X. Then Angelo wanted to know what I was doing tonight (as if to maybe see what's going on) well no, that wasn't it at all when he responds "oh well we are in Santa Rosa (or some place) and we are going to Frisco tomorrow." At that point I knew the same Angelo that I fell for, no longer exists.
It's not even the rude fact that he IMed me from Ryan's screen name, nor is it the fact that he is trying to rewrite his memories of San Fransisco with some stranger, or even the concept of hiding who his roomate was. The thing that bothers me is how two faced Angelo has become. California gay scene? No! Just flaws that are really starting to show through in his personality. Less than two weeks ago, Angelo had nothing nice to say about Ryan. As I recall, he was boring to hangout with, he was weird, it was boring at his party because he doesn't do anything, he isn't very cute, he looks like some kind of small rodent, and he has issues. And now this stranger walks on water according to Angelo, I just don't get it.
I was suppose to go to Pride with him on Sunday, but I have lost much respect for him over this incident and I just can't see myself having a good time while going with him. Because if he is to talk all that crap about Ryan, and then turn around and be the closest friend that he can, who knows what other lies are dripping out of his mouth. Maybe they are perfect for eachother, even if it is only for friends. Ryan is using Angelo because he is interested in messing around with him, and Angelo is interested in Ryan because he is a link to the "gayness" that surrounds Disneyland because he works there. Angelo is thirsty for it right now, and Ryan is his ticket to meeting new "gay" people, going to "gay" parties, and having a "gay" ol' time.
I took what I needed to learn from my relationship with Angelo, and sadly I think it is time to completley put him in the past because my missing him has lead to disliking him because of his latest stunts. I don't know why he has to make choices like these, but he did. I guess he didn't care about me as much as he said he did, otherwise even out of a relationship he wouldn't do this kind of stuff. Well so that's that, there is only one thing left to do, he ended the relationship, I end the friendship....what is going to hurt more? And to whom? Oh yeah that's right it wont for Angelo, he's got the "rodent."
It's not even the rude fact that he IMed me from Ryan's screen name, nor is it the fact that he is trying to rewrite his memories of San Fransisco with some stranger, or even the concept of hiding who his roomate was. The thing that bothers me is how two faced Angelo has become. California gay scene? No! Just flaws that are really starting to show through in his personality. Less than two weeks ago, Angelo had nothing nice to say about Ryan. As I recall, he was boring to hangout with, he was weird, it was boring at his party because he doesn't do anything, he isn't very cute, he looks like some kind of small rodent, and he has issues. And now this stranger walks on water according to Angelo, I just don't get it.
I was suppose to go to Pride with him on Sunday, but I have lost much respect for him over this incident and I just can't see myself having a good time while going with him. Because if he is to talk all that crap about Ryan, and then turn around and be the closest friend that he can, who knows what other lies are dripping out of his mouth. Maybe they are perfect for eachother, even if it is only for friends. Ryan is using Angelo because he is interested in messing around with him, and Angelo is interested in Ryan because he is a link to the "gayness" that surrounds Disneyland because he works there. Angelo is thirsty for it right now, and Ryan is his ticket to meeting new "gay" people, going to "gay" parties, and having a "gay" ol' time.
I took what I needed to learn from my relationship with Angelo, and sadly I think it is time to completley put him in the past because my missing him has lead to disliking him because of his latest stunts. I don't know why he has to make choices like these, but he did. I guess he didn't care about me as much as he said he did, otherwise even out of a relationship he wouldn't do this kind of stuff. Well so that's that, there is only one thing left to do, he ended the relationship, I end the friendship....what is going to hurt more? And to whom? Oh yeah that's right it wont for Angelo, he's got the "rodent."