maybe its just this week
So I've talked to all my great past loves this week- crazy right? I mean the only one that I have no possible way of ever finding again is first Ben- Ben Stubbs. So first this week was Ryan it was his birthday and so we had a horribly awkward conversation it was sad that we can't really talk anymore. But I gave him my birthday wishes and so ya talked to my favorite ex. Then Matt and I have been emailing and stuff but we talked on the phone this week he invited me to one of his shows. That conversation was not awkward so yay. Then of course Ben called Thursday night and made me cry- asshole but still he counts. And then Steve found me on myspace which is probably the craziest ever. Steve was my first everything- everything. Back when I was 16 he was 18 or 19. He was my first love and we had planned this whole crazy life together and everything after just one date. But ya he's married and has a daughter. Crazy crazy. I remember when he proposed to me when he was in the army and I told him that he'd find someone better and I guess he did. So my great loves all of them in one week so not cool.