It's been a while
So i'm Totaly forcing myself to finaly write on this thing. Lots of stuff have been happening.
*I'm almost to the 100 lbs mark. In other words, I'm almost close to losing 100 lbs.
*I'm currently talking to someone. I think :/
*My voice has somewhat improved.
And there is school! My god what can I say about Greensboro College?! There are days where the school is ok and there are time when I fucking hate it. Which I guess is a step up from being jack miserable. The tolerance towards gay people at this school confuses the hell out of me. There are a few more gay people and alot more that are closeted. But for some odd reason they seem to have more of a decent time at school. I have my theories:
Theory #1: The non-gays associate with the other gays and are ok with it b/c They pretend it doesn't exist. The difference between them in me is that apparently I wreak of "faggotry"> With dance and all, it's hard to pretend i'm not gay.
Theory #2:Maybe they don't care as much as I do.
GC has been trying to start a GSA. I hate to be a pessimist but I truly think that is going to fail with flying colors. For instance, we're called Pride at GC. Our mascot is that pride, and I know that pisses alot of people off. "Great, now we can't even say Pride without people thinking i'm a fag lover".
I find it funny. People at GC say no-one cares that i'm gay. It's funny b/c it's only a vague relief. People don't care b/c they choose to pretend like it doesn't exist. I guess that's better than nothing. I mean, they aren't putting signs on my wall but it would be nice if they acknowledge who I was. It's very funny. It would be nice to know my place and where I stand as oppose to just 'People not caring". At least if people did put signs on my wall I would know where my place is and get the hell out of there before it gets worse.
I went to UNCG LGTBA meeting. It was pretty cool, it made me think of alot of things. About the dirty T. (Transferring). Met some cool people. There is is National Coming out celebration that i'm gunna go to and the next meeting i'm definately going to attend.
Overall rating towards GC this year sofar: This is as good as it's going to get.
Last Year's rating:OH MY GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE NOW!!!!!!!!!
I think what it is is that i realized
A) These people aren't going to accept anything that isn't sports.
B) They've gotten used to me.
C) I'm better than most of them
D) The same kind of shit happened in middle school and I turned out fine. I think? Well at least better than most of them.
Great. GC lost their 3rd game. And all the athletes still think i'm a worthless piece of crap. See what I have to put up with?
In other news, Fall break is coming soon! I'm audition for Honors Convocation. I'm choreagraphing a piece. That's about it.
*I'm almost to the 100 lbs mark. In other words, I'm almost close to losing 100 lbs.
*I'm currently talking to someone. I think :/
*My voice has somewhat improved.
And there is school! My god what can I say about Greensboro College?! There are days where the school is ok and there are time when I fucking hate it. Which I guess is a step up from being jack miserable. The tolerance towards gay people at this school confuses the hell out of me. There are a few more gay people and alot more that are closeted. But for some odd reason they seem to have more of a decent time at school. I have my theories:
Theory #1: The non-gays associate with the other gays and are ok with it b/c They pretend it doesn't exist. The difference between them in me is that apparently I wreak of "faggotry"> With dance and all, it's hard to pretend i'm not gay.
Theory #2:Maybe they don't care as much as I do.
GC has been trying to start a GSA. I hate to be a pessimist but I truly think that is going to fail with flying colors. For instance, we're called Pride at GC. Our mascot is that pride, and I know that pisses alot of people off. "Great, now we can't even say Pride without people thinking i'm a fag lover".
I find it funny. People at GC say no-one cares that i'm gay. It's funny b/c it's only a vague relief. People don't care b/c they choose to pretend like it doesn't exist. I guess that's better than nothing. I mean, they aren't putting signs on my wall but it would be nice if they acknowledge who I was. It's very funny. It would be nice to know my place and where I stand as oppose to just 'People not caring". At least if people did put signs on my wall I would know where my place is and get the hell out of there before it gets worse.
I went to UNCG LGTBA meeting. It was pretty cool, it made me think of alot of things. About the dirty T. (Transferring). Met some cool people. There is is National Coming out celebration that i'm gunna go to and the next meeting i'm definately going to attend.
Overall rating towards GC this year sofar: This is as good as it's going to get.
Last Year's rating:OH MY GOD GET ME OUT OF HERE NOW!!!!!!!!!
I think what it is is that i realized
A) These people aren't going to accept anything that isn't sports.
B) They've gotten used to me.
C) I'm better than most of them
D) The same kind of shit happened in middle school and I turned out fine. I think? Well at least better than most of them.
Great. GC lost their 3rd game. And all the athletes still think i'm a worthless piece of crap. See what I have to put up with?
In other news, Fall break is coming soon! I'm audition for Honors Convocation. I'm choreagraphing a piece. That's about it.