uh..wow.
that about sums it up today. it was a really long weekend. johnnie, thanks for being there for me. kodi, thanks for being there for danielle. we both needed the support.
amazingly, i feel really good today. freshlike. it got to the point where it all almost ended, and then we talked about everything. i actually feel like we broke through a barrier that was holding our relationship back this weekend. sucks that it took such a huge fight to do it, but it happened. i feel like we are both into this full steam now. i feel like we can actually talk about things openly without getting mad at each other now. like we have an understanding with each other. well, actually we do. we set up a "rules of war" for when we fight. probly should have been done a long time ago, oh well, better late than never. it's taken a lot on both our parts, probly more on danielle's, to get to this point and it would have really sucked to have thrown it all away. i'm really glad that we didn't. i'm really glad that we could actually work through this. not done yet, but at least on the right side of the fence heading the right direction. i don't know, i feel like a little something has changed in me. something heavy has lifted. like i'm allowed to be a little more myself than i was before. odd. so thanks to the friends that stand by, and sorry to you as well for having to deal with our shit. you know we're here for you too.
and babe, i love you...forever. :)
amazingly, i feel really good today. freshlike. it got to the point where it all almost ended, and then we talked about everything. i actually feel like we broke through a barrier that was holding our relationship back this weekend. sucks that it took such a huge fight to do it, but it happened. i feel like we are both into this full steam now. i feel like we can actually talk about things openly without getting mad at each other now. like we have an understanding with each other. well, actually we do. we set up a "rules of war" for when we fight. probly should have been done a long time ago, oh well, better late than never. it's taken a lot on both our parts, probly more on danielle's, to get to this point and it would have really sucked to have thrown it all away. i'm really glad that we didn't. i'm really glad that we could actually work through this. not done yet, but at least on the right side of the fence heading the right direction. i don't know, i feel like a little something has changed in me. something heavy has lifted. like i'm allowed to be a little more myself than i was before. odd. so thanks to the friends that stand by, and sorry to you as well for having to deal with our shit. you know we're here for you too.
and babe, i love you...forever. :)