heartbroken
i just came back from the hospital, my mom is in there. she coulcn't breathe yesterday and she works at jersey shore medical center so instead of going into work, she just went to the ER. its scary to know that my mom is probably going to die in the next couple of years, she has been smoking for so long that it doesn't even matter anymore. she had an episode like this about 6 months ago and she said she would quit and she did for awhile but went back. when she came home she had to use oxygen from a tank and a machine in my house. it really sucked but she got better really quick. amazingly she has very good lungs for someone who hassmoked for 41 years (yea 41 years). she did well for awhile and didnt smoke and she was happy. genuinly happy. my mom has had a very rough life... i wont fill you in on thedetails but she has had a lot of bad things happen to her, so its like she gravitates towards feeling bad and when she smokes she depressed and doesabsolutly nothing. she wakes up smokes, goes to work, drinks coffee and pepsi and smokes moreand sleeps... how is that a life?
so she has been smokngi a lot lately... and she cant even breathe or walk
(side note: on my college graduation she couldnt walk to the lion shrine about 200 meters away bc she couldnt breathe... we had to wait for her to catch her breathe.... now i a take being in shape and being healthy very sewrious and i just graduated with a degree in kinesiology and my mother cant even walk w/o getting tired... i dont know how thats possible esp since i ran in college for 4 years did well and like i am a completly different from my parents....)
she would use the asthma machine to open up her lungs so she could smoke more... now come on how stupid is that? well about a week ago i had a talk with her... this is what i told her
.... mom i cant take this anymore, you have to stop smoking.. i cant come home from work and watch you kill yourself, you are going to die if you keep this up and soon... i honestly dont know if u would last another 2 years if you kept it up... i want you to be there when i get married and i want my kids ot have a grandmom and i need you to be there and i cant take this anymore, please stop... if not for you.. then for me
our next door neighbor died of lung cancer within the last 7 months so all of this should be awake up call... NO - she kept on smoknig
anda week later she is where she is.... she will be there for afew mroe days.... i love her but i am tired of dealing with the same thing.... i have been trying to get her to stop smoknig since i was like 10-- im22 and because of her i have asthma... i am allergic to smoke and my cltohes reek of smoke.... not to mention the house smells like shit, you walk in and your lungs jutsclose... i dont even go into the kitchen because it smells so nasty
well in todays visit (i didnt go to visit her yesterdaybc i was too upset, i hate it and i didnt even want to see her like that again today buti went) she told me she had her last cigarette (note: i have her last pack that she said she would quit when she started) but i actually believe her this time.... i hope she does...
im not a religeous person but if anyone reading this can ask whatever they believe in to help my mom realize that we love her andwant her here.. i would greatly appreciate it...
i know i havent written in this in a long time, i just never had anything to say... ill try to write in this more if anyone cares...
thanks
andrew
so she has been smokngi a lot lately... and she cant even breathe or walk
(side note: on my college graduation she couldnt walk to the lion shrine about 200 meters away bc she couldnt breathe... we had to wait for her to catch her breathe.... now i a take being in shape and being healthy very sewrious and i just graduated with a degree in kinesiology and my mother cant even walk w/o getting tired... i dont know how thats possible esp since i ran in college for 4 years did well and like i am a completly different from my parents....)
she would use the asthma machine to open up her lungs so she could smoke more... now come on how stupid is that? well about a week ago i had a talk with her... this is what i told her
.... mom i cant take this anymore, you have to stop smoking.. i cant come home from work and watch you kill yourself, you are going to die if you keep this up and soon... i honestly dont know if u would last another 2 years if you kept it up... i want you to be there when i get married and i want my kids ot have a grandmom and i need you to be there and i cant take this anymore, please stop... if not for you.. then for me
our next door neighbor died of lung cancer within the last 7 months so all of this should be awake up call... NO - she kept on smoknig
anda week later she is where she is.... she will be there for afew mroe days.... i love her but i am tired of dealing with the same thing.... i have been trying to get her to stop smoknig since i was like 10-- im22 and because of her i have asthma... i am allergic to smoke and my cltohes reek of smoke.... not to mention the house smells like shit, you walk in and your lungs jutsclose... i dont even go into the kitchen because it smells so nasty
well in todays visit (i didnt go to visit her yesterdaybc i was too upset, i hate it and i didnt even want to see her like that again today buti went) she told me she had her last cigarette (note: i have her last pack that she said she would quit when she started) but i actually believe her this time.... i hope she does...
im not a religeous person but if anyone reading this can ask whatever they believe in to help my mom realize that we love her andwant her here.. i would greatly appreciate it...
i know i havent written in this in a long time, i just never had anything to say... ill try to write in this more if anyone cares...
thanks
andrew