Thoughts and feelings before sleep
Tomorrow(technically today, but it's only "tomorrow" because I haven't slept and woke up yet), a celebration will start around 7pm. My mom turned 51 on Monday, but we'll be all going out to dinner to celebrate. Jordan, Justin and possibly Joe will be coming. I don't know where we're going exactly, but food is food.
Right now, I'm having trouble trying to TRY to sleep. I don't want to lay in bed. All I want to do is play games or watch tv. If I'm going to do anything, laying in my bed with the lights of, and playing my PSP would be the best thing. That way, I can get my gaming in, but I can become tired at the same time. Hopefully (unlike last night), I'll be able to put it down before 6 in the morning. Also, I NEED TO EXERCISE. I've been slacking on that. I miss doing it, but lately I've been too tired.
As for other thoughts in my mind right now, I'm wondering if I'm sometimes too hard on myself about my appearance. I really don't know. I know that when it comes to my clothes, I'm a little picky. I also know that I compare myself to other girls WAY too much. I'm also aware of how critical the media can be about appearance, and I know I've payed too much attention to the media. I know that because I don't think I should be questioning myself right now. I know that because I don't think I should be stressing myself out over trying to look "beautiful". I know that because I am me and I should accept ME.
I was told before that beauty is not just the outside appearance, that true beauty lies on the inside.
While I still believe this, I feel like that does not apply to me........
Right now, I'm having trouble trying to TRY to sleep. I don't want to lay in bed. All I want to do is play games or watch tv. If I'm going to do anything, laying in my bed with the lights of, and playing my PSP would be the best thing. That way, I can get my gaming in, but I can become tired at the same time. Hopefully (unlike last night), I'll be able to put it down before 6 in the morning. Also, I NEED TO EXERCISE. I've been slacking on that. I miss doing it, but lately I've been too tired.
As for other thoughts in my mind right now, I'm wondering if I'm sometimes too hard on myself about my appearance. I really don't know. I know that when it comes to my clothes, I'm a little picky. I also know that I compare myself to other girls WAY too much. I'm also aware of how critical the media can be about appearance, and I know I've payed too much attention to the media. I know that because I don't think I should be questioning myself right now. I know that because I don't think I should be stressing myself out over trying to look "beautiful". I know that because I am me and I should accept ME.
I was told before that beauty is not just the outside appearance, that true beauty lies on the inside.
While I still believe this, I feel like that does not apply to me........