leaving...
leaving tomorrow. shit shit shitty shit shit i dont know if i am excited or not. i mean normally going to hilton head is fun, but 5 weeks of me and my stepmom isnt sounding spectacular right now. sigh, remembering last summer, the last 2 weeks of it i was seriously depressed and every night i was calling my mom crying begging her to take me home knowing that she couldnt cuz i had to stay with my dad (some deal they have idk) and i didnt know wut was wrong with me. i think it was because it was the first summer that i had gone there without my sister and she is the only person that was closer to my age that i could talk to. everyone else, meaning my parents friends, are older. but dont get me wrong theyre really cool and i love hanging out with them, but there are things u just cant say to them obviously, theyre not like my frinds at home. but this summer i wont be there hardly as long, thank god, and im hoping that i dont have a meltdown like i did before, and that my stepmom doesnt try brainwashing me into thinking she is a fantastic person who "loves me and my sister" even tho i know for a fact that kristy hates her and sheri isnt to happy with kristy either, which is all a very long story that occured at kristys graduation. theyve both made it vair vair obvious that they dont want ne thing to do with eachother. so my dad and my stepmom have been kinda fighting i guess. im not very informed, just wut my dad tells me, so sheri thinks she must suck up to me with all her might so that if something ever happens to their marriage, i will "be there for her" well we will see,i know she loves me but sometimes i wonder if its genuine or she is just a big fake. all this shit is making me sick, well se how this turns out i guess.
P.S. cole i am NOT mad at u and havent been all summer, im sorry if i made u think that, u are one of my best friends P.P.S. 1 week until HARRY POTTER!!! cheers!