Grey would be the color, if I had a heart.
ive been up since last thursday. and im starting to scare myself.
well I did it again... I set myself up just to fall right back downnnnnn downnnnn dowwnnnnnnn again... Ernesto says hes gonna come over and spend my day off with me and then he calls back two hours later and says he cant anymore cuz he has no gas. So Im fucking pissed off and Im out of Ice and money and men. But thats what I get for being an idiot and believing him AGAIN...GOD. Why am I such a fool for him, he's not that cute or much of a promise keeper[like my dad]which I FUCKING HATE. But I love him, I cant get enough of his pain and torture. seriously Im such a freak. I started MY spring break a day early! lmao if you couldnt tell. I need him I love him Im nothing without him and his distruction in my life. I would do anything to be with him and I dont even know why. FUCK LOVE. FUCKER. but anyways .... Im gonna go now bcuz im all pissy and i know that it's all my fucking fault becuz i dont listen to my head only my heart but i cant help it. if it means years of pain and frustration and dissappointment Ill go through it if that means I can have him. so far its been over two years now and If I dont have him by next summer it's time for a NEW GAME PLAN .... on the count of three everyone overdose.
well I did it again... I set myself up just to fall right back downnnnnn downnnnn dowwnnnnnnn again... Ernesto says hes gonna come over and spend my day off with me and then he calls back two hours later and says he cant anymore cuz he has no gas. So Im fucking pissed off and Im out of Ice and money and men. But thats what I get for being an idiot and believing him AGAIN...GOD. Why am I such a fool for him, he's not that cute or much of a promise keeper[like my dad]which I FUCKING HATE. But I love him, I cant get enough of his pain and torture. seriously Im such a freak. I started MY spring break a day early! lmao if you couldnt tell. I need him I love him Im nothing without him and his distruction in my life. I would do anything to be with him and I dont even know why. FUCK LOVE. FUCKER. but anyways .... Im gonna go now bcuz im all pissy and i know that it's all my fucking fault becuz i dont listen to my head only my heart but i cant help it. if it means years of pain and frustration and dissappointment Ill go through it if that means I can have him. so far its been over two years now and If I dont have him by next summer it's time for a NEW GAME PLAN .... on the count of three everyone overdose.