I wont keep up with this.
I don't think I am really writing this for anyone to read, except perhaps those who accidently stumble upon my entries or maybe lawrence if he checks his friends entries.
I like to think of my self as a pretty down to earth person. Not so much a pretty and down to earth person but I certainly have my days. When I was younger I used to start journals so that I could write how horrible I felt and how much I hated my damn, horrible life. I still have most of the entries printed out but I have since deleted the journals. I would hope that perhaps this time around things will be different. I am in a place that for the most part I can live with. Things do certainly need to change and hopefully they will within the near future but for now I'm content with who and where I am.
I suppose there were many changes that I have made during the past year that have made my life that much better. I stopped dating assholes for one. 2005 was a year full of assholes and me totally willing to be there to be shit upon (not literally). I have since found someone who makes me completely happy. I know what I want, it's written down, and I am not taking anything less than amazing. I also stopped eating meat. I feel better and perhaps I even look better, who knows? I started talking more, despite what my boyfriend may want to think I was even less talkative a year ago.
However there are many things I still need to work on:
-talking more and expressing my feelings to those around me.
-Being a better, calmer driver.
-Stressing less.
-Worrying less.
-Stop comparing myself to others.
-and so on...
I think that my head is on straight and I have the ability to go forward and do the things that I want without having to fall and scrape my knees as much as before. This is who I am and you don't have to enjoy me.
But wouldn't life be so much better if you did?
I like to think of my self as a pretty down to earth person. Not so much a pretty and down to earth person but I certainly have my days. When I was younger I used to start journals so that I could write how horrible I felt and how much I hated my damn, horrible life. I still have most of the entries printed out but I have since deleted the journals. I would hope that perhaps this time around things will be different. I am in a place that for the most part I can live with. Things do certainly need to change and hopefully they will within the near future but for now I'm content with who and where I am.
I suppose there were many changes that I have made during the past year that have made my life that much better. I stopped dating assholes for one. 2005 was a year full of assholes and me totally willing to be there to be shit upon (not literally). I have since found someone who makes me completely happy. I know what I want, it's written down, and I am not taking anything less than amazing. I also stopped eating meat. I feel better and perhaps I even look better, who knows? I started talking more, despite what my boyfriend may want to think I was even less talkative a year ago.
However there are many things I still need to work on:
-talking more and expressing my feelings to those around me.
-Being a better, calmer driver.
-Stressing less.
-Worrying less.
-Stop comparing myself to others.
-and so on...
I think that my head is on straight and I have the ability to go forward and do the things that I want without having to fall and scrape my knees as much as before. This is who I am and you don't have to enjoy me.
But wouldn't life be so much better if you did?