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This is a saved entry from two weeks ago....Is it possible to be dancing in the rain of your own loneliness. I had a dream where this girl that I dont get along with told me that. I broke up with Devron, the stranger I fell in love with. I dont think its possible for me to look before I leap in relationships. All I see is a hot guy, that has lots of fun, and has issues, which makes my issues look like nothing. So theres all this excess baggage and I dont just fall, I fall hard and break everybone when I finally see the ground and say oh shit and hit it. I hit it hard. And it takes forever for me to get up again. It takes months of therapy. Its so petty and stupid to let a man you've known for like five months rule your life and your feelings and your work and study and exercize habits. You eat more, and I know this is a common woman thing to feel, but I dont want to be a woman who feels this. I want to not be in relationships. This sucks. I am not supposed to be in relationships until I can raise a plant and an animal for a year without them dying. I still havent even bought a plant. Damn, I am a potty mouth....lord help me with my language. I miss yall from back home and please dont be alarmed at this entry, I am fine, and the fact that I am saying all this means I am fine, I am not keeping it in, but still. Lets see how I feel in a month or so
and this is today........Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and
make
plans.
Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in
where he
fits in.
Girls want to control the man in their life.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.
Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.
Girls try to put a man 'on lock' by using sex.
Grown women know that it's the sex of the mental kind that makes a man
want
to 'lock' you down.
Girls fake-moan, lay there and take the stabbing.
Grown women say, "Just stop", get up, get dressed and walk it out.
Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it--using it as a time for personal growth.
Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.
Girls make you come.
Grown women make you come home.
Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.
Girls try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e. don't want him
hanging
with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time'
even
more special and goes to kick it with her own friends!
Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.
I seen this a said I know a lot of us have been there done that
Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Grown women show him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate w/o
fear
of losing his manhood.
Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.
Girls fall in love, chase aimlessly after the object of their
affection,
ignoring all signs.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you
back
and move on without bitterness.
Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other grown women!!
I got that in a forward and it was very fitting. I'm in that weird transition where I cant yet stop acting like a girl, and when I act like a woman, its with a boy who doesnt know how to be a man
and this is today........Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and
make
plans.
Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in
where he
fits in.
Girls want to control the man in their life.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.
Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.
Girls try to put a man 'on lock' by using sex.
Grown women know that it's the sex of the mental kind that makes a man
want
to 'lock' you down.
Girls fake-moan, lay there and take the stabbing.
Grown women say, "Just stop", get up, get dressed and walk it out.
Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it--using it as a time for personal growth.
Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.
Girls make you come.
Grown women make you come home.
Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.
Girls try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e. don't want him
hanging
with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time'
even
more special and goes to kick it with her own friends!
Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.
I seen this a said I know a lot of us have been there done that
Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Grown women show him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate w/o
fear
of losing his manhood.
Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.
Girls fall in love, chase aimlessly after the object of their
affection,
ignoring all signs.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you
back
and move on without bitterness.
Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other grown women!!
I got that in a forward and it was very fitting. I'm in that weird transition where I cant yet stop acting like a girl, and when I act like a woman, its with a boy who doesnt know how to be a man