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[aprilfires]

so it is really surreal to me that i leave home on tuesday. well i leave for san diego with the family friday for my brother's soccer tournament. then i leave on tuesday for all my pre school stuff. and i'm not excited like i thought i'd be for all my pre school stuff. i'm not not excited either, i'm just kinda apathetic. and kinda like in my head it seems like it should still be so far away. i don't think i really realize how close it really is. and if i could make myself fathom it then i may be excited. i dunno. i'm one apathetic blob at the moment. there have only really been two times in the past week i've felt anything other then indifferent. one: when thinking of the comedy show i did tonight i'd get angry. and two: while working with the kids at guys and dolls i was happy. what does this mean? i don't really know. WHy am i bothering to write this down? i don't know.

my favorit moment from improv tonight. i walked on and the two guys on stage were talking about shooting squirles ... and then one of them shot one ... and i ran on and yelled "why did you shoot that squirell, i told you to cut the tree" and brandon goes "look it's my vegan girlfriend" and for whatever reason that amused me.

umm now that i've been completely depressing and boring i shall stop bringing you down. bye bye