so far in somerville
so i've officially been here one full month, but to be honest it feels like ive been here years... minus the whole i still don't know how to get from point a to point b efficiently thing. eh. oh well.
strangely i still feel detached from almost everyone out here. for some reason i thought i would move back and everything would be back to normal if nothing else... but now i am struggling with the whole being an adult thing. i don't quite feel right about going home and spending the night at my dad's... i feel like i am supposed to be past that stage. i guess i feel like i need to be invited now or something (which i know my father would laugh at and say i am welcome all the time... i just can't help like feeling thats not the case anymore).
On a different note... I have been listening to the radio a whole lot this past month+ seeing as I have a lengthy commute twice a day. you think if i had all that time i would listen to something smart like the news or npr or any type of talk radio really... but no i listen to mix 98.5. Pathetically it is also the radio station that plays all day long at my work. So on an average day I hear the same 7 songs about 8 or 9 times... literally. yet some how i am still strangely drawn to it. i now know all the words to multiple Kelly Clarkson, Fergie, Plain White T's, Elliot Yamine and Carrie Underwood songs... and even stranger... i kinda possibly like a couple of them... and further more for a couple weeks there i somehow managed to relate my life to every single song on the radio. which of course meant a lot of singing and sometimes screaming (especially if Kelly was on singing "never again").
so yeah. still with the same job. searching like crazy to get out of it... so if you hear anything...
and thats all i've got.
strangely i still feel detached from almost everyone out here. for some reason i thought i would move back and everything would be back to normal if nothing else... but now i am struggling with the whole being an adult thing. i don't quite feel right about going home and spending the night at my dad's... i feel like i am supposed to be past that stage. i guess i feel like i need to be invited now or something (which i know my father would laugh at and say i am welcome all the time... i just can't help like feeling thats not the case anymore).
On a different note... I have been listening to the radio a whole lot this past month+ seeing as I have a lengthy commute twice a day. you think if i had all that time i would listen to something smart like the news or npr or any type of talk radio really... but no i listen to mix 98.5. Pathetically it is also the radio station that plays all day long at my work. So on an average day I hear the same 7 songs about 8 or 9 times... literally. yet some how i am still strangely drawn to it. i now know all the words to multiple Kelly Clarkson, Fergie, Plain White T's, Elliot Yamine and Carrie Underwood songs... and even stranger... i kinda possibly like a couple of them... and further more for a couple weeks there i somehow managed to relate my life to every single song on the radio. which of course meant a lot of singing and sometimes screaming (especially if Kelly was on singing "never again").
so yeah. still with the same job. searching like crazy to get out of it... so if you hear anything...
and thats all i've got.