Time? What?
Oh my- I actually have a free moment and an idea of what to write for the first time since... I last posted! Obviously, I've been quite busy. It's really hard to balance work, school, college applications and my billion and a half other activities. However, as I am apparently harder to stalk if I don't update this thing, here you go... ;-)
To begin with.... college applications are almost done!! I have like... one and a half left, and then if i decide to do some others, those too. However, as its an incredible relief to have them all off my back, I'm not sure I'll apply anywhere else. I'm kind of worried though; everyone I talk to has either visited way more than I have, plans on applying to way more than I have, or both. I feel almost as if I'm slacking off here or something. It's hard to explain. I think I'm just worried because I have yet to find the college where I can walk on the campus and feel that that is where I belong. I don't know if I will find it though. Every college that I have visited and decided to apply to has been great, but there's always at least one thing I dislike about it. Sometimes it's just a feeling, other times a fact, but it's there. Plus the fact that I don't think I'll get in every where I've applied doesn't help, nor does the fact that I don't know how I'll pay for it. However, I guess I'll have to, to coin a phrase, cross that bridge when I come to it. There's no point in worrying about it now... but I know I still will. I know my apps are done and my grades are up and I can't do anything else but...
Oh well.
In other news... I keep getting the feeling that I'm going to either let myself down or let someone else down soon. Maybe its pressure from "trying to do too much", as my mom has said, but I'm not sure. Therefore, before I do mess something up, I would like to reinforce the fact that my friends rule. The friends I have now, those that I have lost touch with and those that I still try to keep in touch with even if it's hard... you're just awesome. Even if we lost touch, I owe you something for just being with me for that period of time. You all have at least one memory that's special to me. And those of you that help me deal with everything I put myself through, thanks for dealing with my ranting and bitchiness and complete exhaustion at times. I appreciate it. And everyone else... the people that I try to see... when can we get together? The CRILA meeting tonight ( :-D ) will get some of us together, but the rest? Christmas party?
Alright, I'm done. Thinking about college stuff makes me nostalgic/nervous/what-have-you. I can't wait till it's all done and I have more free time. I know the people I'll be spending it with.
To begin with.... college applications are almost done!! I have like... one and a half left, and then if i decide to do some others, those too. However, as its an incredible relief to have them all off my back, I'm not sure I'll apply anywhere else. I'm kind of worried though; everyone I talk to has either visited way more than I have, plans on applying to way more than I have, or both. I feel almost as if I'm slacking off here or something. It's hard to explain. I think I'm just worried because I have yet to find the college where I can walk on the campus and feel that that is where I belong. I don't know if I will find it though. Every college that I have visited and decided to apply to has been great, but there's always at least one thing I dislike about it. Sometimes it's just a feeling, other times a fact, but it's there. Plus the fact that I don't think I'll get in every where I've applied doesn't help, nor does the fact that I don't know how I'll pay for it. However, I guess I'll have to, to coin a phrase, cross that bridge when I come to it. There's no point in worrying about it now... but I know I still will. I know my apps are done and my grades are up and I can't do anything else but...
Oh well.
In other news... I keep getting the feeling that I'm going to either let myself down or let someone else down soon. Maybe its pressure from "trying to do too much", as my mom has said, but I'm not sure. Therefore, before I do mess something up, I would like to reinforce the fact that my friends rule. The friends I have now, those that I have lost touch with and those that I still try to keep in touch with even if it's hard... you're just awesome. Even if we lost touch, I owe you something for just being with me for that period of time. You all have at least one memory that's special to me. And those of you that help me deal with everything I put myself through, thanks for dealing with my ranting and bitchiness and complete exhaustion at times. I appreciate it. And everyone else... the people that I try to see... when can we get together? The CRILA meeting tonight ( :-D ) will get some of us together, but the rest? Christmas party?
Alright, I'm done. Thinking about college stuff makes me nostalgic/nervous/what-have-you. I can't wait till it's all done and I have more free time. I know the people I'll be spending it with.