this is too long of a comment and mostly sobbing sorry)clio323November 3 2015, 05:32:58 UTC
sorry for the late comment! I actually sat on this story for 2 days because, like I mentioned, I didn't want it to end because I know it will hurt me and I had to build up the courage ^^;;
first off, yep, I totally cried. Baekhyun had asthma when he was human and god damn it, you're so good at building things up (and into the story) that when the big reveal happens, its like a wave crashes on you and all you can do is cry.
I mentioned previously how much I adore your baekhyun and have grown it like your chanyeol, but in this chapter, you gave me a reason to want them to be together. The smut was really well done, but beyond the physical act of it all --- the sheer intimacy and the repercussions, particularly for chanyeol, were everything I needed and wanted to make me want them to be together in the end. Finally, finally, chanyeol understood that he had been wrong about vampires and I liked his development from not trusting vampires to actually wanting baekhyun to bite him (and enjoying it!). The emotional weight of the scene (and the bond) was crushing and beautiful and I swear I've never read something so intimate.
aaaand can we talk about how cunning you are and how clever seulgi is?? I was like "cool, there's a plan in place to catch her" and while I knew it was probably going to fail bc seulgi and baekhyun needed to face off in the end, I freaking didn't think that about how brilliantly clever seulgi would be to draw baekhyun (+chanyeol) out into the open where she could pick them off! I am so impressed because I can never think of schemes and plots but this whole fic is like a well-constructed mastermind of a story and YOURE BRILLIANT.
holy shit and now she's turning chanyeol omggg (I've now decided to live comment this as I read bc things are getting INTENSE and if I don't I won't be able to make it through this chapter /breathes heavily!!!!!!!)
I CANT FUCKING STOP CRYING OH MY GOD
"If you do this, you’ll learn everything there is to know about this person, you’ll see a beauty in him that no one else will ever be able to see. And you won’t be able to let him go"
NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE THIS IS TOO MUCH IM RUINED YOU RUINED ME I CANT GO ON (THIS IS TOO BEAUTIFUL IM NOT WORTHY I HAVE SO MUCH REGRET)
i lied I lied you made me lie because chanyeol and baekhyun are fucking bonding right now and THIS is the most intimate thing I've ever read! how can you give 2 of the most emotionally intense things in the same chapter? this is cruel!!!!!
"Baekhyun wants a phone but he has no idea how to use it." <---- why does this hurt me? I'm crying and I know this is a ridiculous thing to cry about especially since right now baekhyun might be dying and chanyeol too but this is... I have lost control of my feelings lol
baekhyun still can't believe that chanyeol would choose him. that chanyeol would risk his life for him. that chanyeol's choice is him. shh baekhyun please be happy now. you deserve it.
okay. I made it. I'm sorry for the above spazzing (I'm leaving it because I want you to take responsibility for my shattered heart!!!)
2 more things I promise:
at first, I didn't know how things would pan out in the end between baekhyun and seulgi, because I knew it had to come down to them somehow, but I also didnt know how baekhyun would do it---if he could do it. And I'm so glad you removed the choice from him (and chanyeol, incidentally) because I don't know how baekhyun would have fared if he was the one to kill seulgi....again. There could not have been a happy end for chanyeol and baekhyun if either one of them had killed her, and AGAIN I'm so impressed by how you built up the story that OF COURSE it's kim minseok who comes in at the end to carry through with his revenge. Neat and tidy :)
the bond -- this was gorgeous. I love that we're taken to baekhyun's past and more than that, it really feels like a tangible thing between baekhyun and chanyeol. I loved that there was danger involved too, that both chanyeol and baekhyun could have easily died. sure, chanyeol had his back to the wall, but he knew he wanted to bond with baekhyun even before he knew it was a possibility. beautiful beautiful beautiful.
RE: this is too long of a comment and mostly sobbing sorry)aprilclashAugust 5 2016, 09:56:17 UTC
ok THIS COMMENT DESERVED AN ANSWER but i'm a terrible person and i'm so bad at handling sns and i really love to talk to my readers but most of the time i have no time and so i find myself a few motnhs later wondering how to reply without sounding rude bc nine fucking months happened and. ok i'm here.
I'M SO GLAD YOU READ THIS AND COMMENTED ON EVERY CHAPTER you can't believe how glad i am like i was so nervous when i first posted this fic but thank you for always staying with me and thank you for noticing the most important little things like baekhyun and phones and the most important big things like seulgi dying at minseok's hands and not at baekhyun's or chanyeol's. i really don't think baekhyun could've killed her and chanyeol was not able to do it (though he would've done it quite gladly). i chose minseok because of their side story, because seulgi had a link with sehun and she wanted to get him back and she tried to kill minseok to have sehun back and minseok is such a possessive bastard and no one can touch sehun now that they're together so it had to be him.
the bond... is not as perfect as it seems. they will need time to heal and to build something by themselves, but i wanted them to have a chance and now they do.
thank you for this beautiful comment you really made me happy all the times i've come here to reread it <3
first off, yep, I totally cried. Baekhyun had asthma when he was human and god damn it, you're so good at building things up (and into the story) that when the big reveal happens, its like a wave crashes on you and all you can do is cry.
I mentioned previously how much I adore your baekhyun and have grown it like your chanyeol, but in this chapter, you gave me a reason to want them to be together. The smut was really well done, but beyond the physical act of it all --- the sheer intimacy and the repercussions, particularly for chanyeol, were everything I needed and wanted to make me want them to be together in the end. Finally, finally, chanyeol understood that he had been wrong about vampires and I liked his development from not trusting vampires to actually wanting baekhyun to bite him (and enjoying it!). The emotional weight of the scene (and the bond) was crushing and beautiful and I swear I've never read something so intimate.
aaaand can we talk about how cunning you are and how clever seulgi is?? I was like "cool, there's a plan in place to catch her" and while I knew it was probably going to fail bc seulgi and baekhyun needed to face off in the end, I freaking didn't think that about how brilliantly clever seulgi would be to draw baekhyun (+chanyeol) out into the open where she could pick them off! I am so impressed because I can never think of schemes and plots but this whole fic is like a well-constructed mastermind of a story and YOURE BRILLIANT.
holy shit and now she's turning chanyeol omggg (I've now decided to live comment this as I read bc things are getting INTENSE and if I don't I won't be able to make it through this chapter /breathes heavily!!!!!!!)
I CANT FUCKING STOP CRYING OH MY GOD
"If you do this, you’ll learn everything there is to know about this person, you’ll see a beauty in him that no one else will ever be able to see. And you won’t be able to let him go"
NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE THIS IS TOO MUCH IM RUINED YOU RUINED ME I CANT GO ON (THIS IS TOO BEAUTIFUL IM NOT WORTHY I HAVE SO MUCH REGRET)
i lied I lied you made me lie because chanyeol and baekhyun are fucking bonding right now and THIS is the most intimate thing I've ever read! how can you give 2 of the most emotionally intense things in the same chapter? this is cruel!!!!!
"Baekhyun wants a phone but he has no idea how to use it." <---- why does this hurt me? I'm crying and I know this is a ridiculous thing to cry about especially since right now baekhyun might be dying and chanyeol too but this is... I have lost control of my feelings lol
baekhyun still can't believe that chanyeol would choose him. that chanyeol would risk his life for him. that chanyeol's choice is him. shh baekhyun please be happy now. you deserve it.
okay. I made it. I'm sorry for the above spazzing (I'm leaving it because I want you to take responsibility for my shattered heart!!!)
2 more things I promise:
at first, I didn't know how things would pan out in the end between baekhyun and seulgi, because I knew it had to come down to them somehow, but I also didnt know how baekhyun would do it---if he could do it. And I'm so glad you removed the choice from him (and chanyeol, incidentally) because I don't know how baekhyun would have fared if he was the one to kill seulgi....again. There could not have been a happy end for chanyeol and baekhyun if either one of them had killed her, and AGAIN I'm so impressed by how you built up the story that OF COURSE it's kim minseok who comes in at the end to carry through with his revenge. Neat and tidy :)
the bond -- this was gorgeous. I love that we're taken to baekhyun's past and more than that, it really feels like a tangible thing between baekhyun and chanyeol. I loved that there was danger involved too, that both chanyeol and baekhyun could have easily died. sure, chanyeol had his back to the wall, but he knew he wanted to bond with baekhyun even before he knew it was a possibility. beautiful beautiful beautiful.
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I'M SO GLAD YOU READ THIS AND COMMENTED ON EVERY CHAPTER you can't believe how glad i am like i was so nervous when i first posted this fic but thank you for always staying with me and thank you for noticing the most important little things like baekhyun and phones and the most important big things like seulgi dying at minseok's hands and not at baekhyun's or chanyeol's. i really don't think baekhyun could've killed her and chanyeol was not able to do it (though he would've done it quite gladly). i chose minseok because of their side story, because seulgi had a link with sehun and she wanted to get him back and she tried to kill minseok to have sehun back and minseok is such a possessive bastard and no one can touch sehun now that they're together so it had to be him.
the bond... is not as perfect as it seems. they will need time to heal and to build something by themselves, but i wanted them to have a chance and now they do.
thank you for this beautiful comment you really made me happy all the times i've come here to reread it <3
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