disappointment
Well tuesday night Jordan from work came over and we watched "Employee of the Month" which was okay, but we didn't really watch the movie. I thought he was being completely adorable - kissing the forehead, stroking my arms, tickling me. But now I'm left to wonder, am i just a piece of ass or does he see more than that?
He did try to go down my pants, but as soon as I said no, he totally respected that and didn't even go near there again. All we really did was make out, which i can't see a guy being totally satisfied with if he wants to just hook up..
The reason why I'm concerned - haven't heard from him since that night. I hate this part, wondering if I'm ass or not. The thing is, I'm really sick and tired of being jerked around. I don't want to be someone's key to 'getting some'. Not just for Jordon, but anyone. And i think a part of that is because of Jason and the way he treated me, almost like he forces me to believe that every guy will be like him.
I just want a guy to prove me wrong..
.. that or just have no guys at all
He did try to go down my pants, but as soon as I said no, he totally respected that and didn't even go near there again. All we really did was make out, which i can't see a guy being totally satisfied with if he wants to just hook up..
The reason why I'm concerned - haven't heard from him since that night. I hate this part, wondering if I'm ass or not. The thing is, I'm really sick and tired of being jerked around. I don't want to be someone's key to 'getting some'. Not just for Jordon, but anyone. And i think a part of that is because of Jason and the way he treated me, almost like he forces me to believe that every guy will be like him.
I just want a guy to prove me wrong..
.. that or just have no guys at all