nothing comes from silence
If people would have told me that life would drasticaly change when you get married I wouldn't have done so. Love is to be celebrated... treasured... enjoyed. But it is not. How can such a blessing be disguised as a curse that should be pitted against everything that a person could or want to know. Why? So many fucking questions but never an answer to what we truly are... what we need. Life is full of mystery this I know. And part of that mystery is what enchanted me so. A mistake.... no one will ever admit that... I should strike myself for uttering those very words.
How are people able to survive in such a loveless state? How are they able to exist when there is nothingness? Someone have the answer? Someone have a cure as to why a person I love with every fiber of my being now seems to loathe me. No matter what I do I am wrong. What is left in this.... crazy... dark.... so I shall seek out that which I don't know. I will travel until the very soles of my feet can no longer feel the ache that I will bring upon them.
Take me sweet... whatever awaits me in the darkness... I shall be with you... for I am cast unto the night... forgotten... forsaken. Nay.. never alone. Just unloved.
How are people able to survive in such a loveless state? How are they able to exist when there is nothingness? Someone have the answer? Someone have a cure as to why a person I love with every fiber of my being now seems to loathe me. No matter what I do I am wrong. What is left in this.... crazy... dark.... so I shall seek out that which I don't know. I will travel until the very soles of my feet can no longer feel the ache that I will bring upon them.
Take me sweet... whatever awaits me in the darkness... I shall be with you... for I am cast unto the night... forgotten... forsaken. Nay.. never alone. Just unloved.