Dwelling in Self Pity...
Okay well so I should've gotten used to the idea that my friends really aren't my friends and were never really my friends to begin with. However, things seemed to have been going back to the way they used to be. Yeah. Well guess what? I just read the signs wrong. AGAIN! Of course.
At lunch today, I sat down in a corner, you know the corner Dustin, where you used to stand. Anyway, I sat down there since the "group" (sarah, mystery, and amanda) was about a foot away. I was hoping to just sit in peace becoz I seemed to be far enough away that they'd just forget or not even realize I was there. I mean, even when i'm up in their faces they pretend i'm not there so I figured I might as well sit down a foot away. Well I was enjoying my little peace of mind and people not paying any attention to me for once, when all of a sudden, Mystery turns around and says "oh yeah..." and flips me off. WTF?! So I just ya know, looked at her. I don't like to cause a problem. She said "That's from Alex, he told me next time I saw you to flip you off for him coz you're a bitch." NOW THAT REALLY FUCKING PISSED ME OFF. Not alot of things piss me off anymore because my limits have been quite tested to the limits in relationships past. Anyways. This is Alex Carr we're talking about here. I dated him for...oh...2 weeks, 3 weeks max.? I can't even remember! It was 1st semester my SOPHMORE year. SOPHMORE YEAR!!! What grade am I in now??? A FUCKING SENIOR! CAN'T HE GET OVER THINGS?!This is what happened with me and AL...We were dating and he was such an ass "YOU LIKE GRANT, I KNOW YOU DO! WHY DO YOU TALK TO HIM? YOU'RE MY G/F NOT HIS! I DON'T WANT YOU EVER TO TALK TO GRANT AGAIN, EVER!!!!" Well first of all, I didn't like Grant, I liked Alex. 2nd, I KNOOOOOW he did not just tell me who I could and couldn't talk to. He's not my daddy! AND EVEN IF HE WAS I DON'T LISTEN TO MY DADDY! Anyway! So I ended breaking up with him and he waits until AFTER we break up and then he's like "I LOVE YOU! PLEEEEEEEEEEASE GO BACK OUT W/ ME!" I just wanted to chill ya know. Anyway so he keeps on and keeps on and ya'd think if you say no the first 9 times, the 10th time, you're probly gonna say no. But he never got the message and I ended up just hating him for it.I guess he hates me now. HA! Do I care, not really. I care that he's going out of his way to try and piss me off. LOL...did a pretty good job of it, eh?
Well anyways, I said that to Mystery the whole 10 times no thing,and then Sarah goes "Well he asked Mystery out and she said Yes." and that was just like "WTF!!!!?" Mystery's been w/the same dude (Zach) since the beginning of time and now she's w/Alex? WHOA! So I'm like "Wow...what happened to Zach?" You know, all calm and stuff, just wondering. And she goes "UH WE BROKE UP!!" And I was ignoring her bitchiness and was like "How come?" And I'll be damned if she didn't blow right the fuck up in my face. JUST FOR ASKING!
So I ended up leaving my lil corner and sitting by myself at one of the picnic tables outside. What a disaster. It was raining of course, but I didn't care. Just so long as the rain didn't insult me or yell at me. It just got me wet. I didn't care.
FRIENDS ARE BITCHES! I'VE YET TO FIND ONE THAT KEEPS UP WITH MY LIFE AND CARES ABOUT WHAT I FEEL. IT'S ALWAYS ME ASKING HOW THEY ARE. ME ASKING HOW THEIR RELATIONSHIPS ARE DOING.
BITCHES.
I have a stoopid chorus concert to go preform at in a few minutes so i'll talk to you all later.
april182
At lunch today, I sat down in a corner, you know the corner Dustin, where you used to stand. Anyway, I sat down there since the "group" (sarah, mystery, and amanda) was about a foot away. I was hoping to just sit in peace becoz I seemed to be far enough away that they'd just forget or not even realize I was there. I mean, even when i'm up in their faces they pretend i'm not there so I figured I might as well sit down a foot away. Well I was enjoying my little peace of mind and people not paying any attention to me for once, when all of a sudden, Mystery turns around and says "oh yeah..." and flips me off. WTF?! So I just ya know, looked at her. I don't like to cause a problem. She said "That's from Alex, he told me next time I saw you to flip you off for him coz you're a bitch." NOW THAT REALLY FUCKING PISSED ME OFF. Not alot of things piss me off anymore because my limits have been quite tested to the limits in relationships past. Anyways. This is Alex Carr we're talking about here. I dated him for...oh...2 weeks, 3 weeks max.? I can't even remember! It was 1st semester my SOPHMORE year. SOPHMORE YEAR!!! What grade am I in now??? A FUCKING SENIOR! CAN'T HE GET OVER THINGS?!This is what happened with me and AL...We were dating and he was such an ass "YOU LIKE GRANT, I KNOW YOU DO! WHY DO YOU TALK TO HIM? YOU'RE MY G/F NOT HIS! I DON'T WANT YOU EVER TO TALK TO GRANT AGAIN, EVER!!!!" Well first of all, I didn't like Grant, I liked Alex. 2nd, I KNOOOOOW he did not just tell me who I could and couldn't talk to. He's not my daddy! AND EVEN IF HE WAS I DON'T LISTEN TO MY DADDY! Anyway! So I ended breaking up with him and he waits until AFTER we break up and then he's like "I LOVE YOU! PLEEEEEEEEEEASE GO BACK OUT W/ ME!" I just wanted to chill ya know. Anyway so he keeps on and keeps on and ya'd think if you say no the first 9 times, the 10th time, you're probly gonna say no. But he never got the message and I ended up just hating him for it.I guess he hates me now. HA! Do I care, not really. I care that he's going out of his way to try and piss me off. LOL...did a pretty good job of it, eh?
Well anyways, I said that to Mystery the whole 10 times no thing,and then Sarah goes "Well he asked Mystery out and she said Yes." and that was just like "WTF!!!!?" Mystery's been w/the same dude (Zach) since the beginning of time and now she's w/Alex? WHOA! So I'm like "Wow...what happened to Zach?" You know, all calm and stuff, just wondering. And she goes "UH WE BROKE UP!!" And I was ignoring her bitchiness and was like "How come?" And I'll be damned if she didn't blow right the fuck up in my face. JUST FOR ASKING!
So I ended up leaving my lil corner and sitting by myself at one of the picnic tables outside. What a disaster. It was raining of course, but I didn't care. Just so long as the rain didn't insult me or yell at me. It just got me wet. I didn't care.
FRIENDS ARE BITCHES! I'VE YET TO FIND ONE THAT KEEPS UP WITH MY LIFE AND CARES ABOUT WHAT I FEEL. IT'S ALWAYS ME ASKING HOW THEY ARE. ME ASKING HOW THEIR RELATIONSHIPS ARE DOING.
BITCHES.
I have a stoopid chorus concert to go preform at in a few minutes so i'll talk to you all later.
april182