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it feels like i've been gone from the world for a year. getting sick definitely does suck. i've had a lot of time to just lay low, get my rest. the first day of it was hell though. i didn't eat anything. missing work doesn't help much either, considering i only have 6 bucks to my name now.
thanksgiving wasn't the greatest. i spent the entire day wondering what i should be thankful for and who to thank for it. i felt like all the stuff i had was because of me, so who should i thank? i realize now, and i hope that all that was just the sickness talking, and i do have quite a bit to be thankful for. i won't go off into some long explanation about what all of those things are.. just know i'm not an ungrateful person.
i'm afraid that a few of my dreams won't come true. i know that not everything can come true.. but i just want to see things before i go to college.. i want to experience the world, see as much as i can, and with the way things are looking right now i won't even make it to new york before i get my teaching degree. i just want to go to strawberry fields and lay in the middle of the "imagine" mosaic and think "god, how could i be this lucky?" i want to go to the west and see the place where so many of those great american westerns were filmed. i don't know.. maybe i dream too much.
i got to finish a great book while i was sick. the best i've read in a while. neely o'hara really was a bitch, but to start as a 17 year old girl and get to where she was, she must of had talent, and she knew it..
love always,
ashley
thanksgiving wasn't the greatest. i spent the entire day wondering what i should be thankful for and who to thank for it. i felt like all the stuff i had was because of me, so who should i thank? i realize now, and i hope that all that was just the sickness talking, and i do have quite a bit to be thankful for. i won't go off into some long explanation about what all of those things are.. just know i'm not an ungrateful person.
i'm afraid that a few of my dreams won't come true. i know that not everything can come true.. but i just want to see things before i go to college.. i want to experience the world, see as much as i can, and with the way things are looking right now i won't even make it to new york before i get my teaching degree. i just want to go to strawberry fields and lay in the middle of the "imagine" mosaic and think "god, how could i be this lucky?" i want to go to the west and see the place where so many of those great american westerns were filmed. i don't know.. maybe i dream too much.
i got to finish a great book while i was sick. the best i've read in a while. neely o'hara really was a bitch, but to start as a 17 year old girl and get to where she was, she must of had talent, and she knew it..
love always,
ashley