tuesday.
weight: 143.0
down 1.0
i can't believe i lost an even pound. i can't believe i lost a whole pound. i stayed up until 1 am with my roommates and friends last night making and eating cookies. it's so hard to make good food choices when i'm around them. they just eat all this fun food all of the time and i look at their perfect bodies and think, "i can do this too!" but, i can't.
i threw up at the gym yesterday. i just got really dizzy and light headed and then just threw up in the bathroom. i was really shakey and weak afterwards for awhile, but felt okay after a bit.
not trying to figure out how many calories i lost from throwing up and not counting the cookies late last night, i had a negative 845 caloric intake for teh day. i'm not counting the cookies because there's no way i could estimate it, not because i don't think they some how count.
i was doing really today. only fruits all day and 700 calories burned during spin class. When i came home though, i started to feel weak again and i just justified my way to a peanut butter sandwich. that's 200 calories in peanut butter and 200 calories in bread. fuck me. i didn't need, i could have had orange juice. i'm a failure.
i really wanted to lose more by tomorrow. we'll see, i guess.
down 1.0
i can't believe i lost an even pound. i can't believe i lost a whole pound. i stayed up until 1 am with my roommates and friends last night making and eating cookies. it's so hard to make good food choices when i'm around them. they just eat all this fun food all of the time and i look at their perfect bodies and think, "i can do this too!" but, i can't.
i threw up at the gym yesterday. i just got really dizzy and light headed and then just threw up in the bathroom. i was really shakey and weak afterwards for awhile, but felt okay after a bit.
not trying to figure out how many calories i lost from throwing up and not counting the cookies late last night, i had a negative 845 caloric intake for teh day. i'm not counting the cookies because there's no way i could estimate it, not because i don't think they some how count.
i was doing really today. only fruits all day and 700 calories burned during spin class. When i came home though, i started to feel weak again and i just justified my way to a peanut butter sandwich. that's 200 calories in peanut butter and 200 calories in bread. fuck me. i didn't need, i could have had orange juice. i'm a failure.
i really wanted to lose more by tomorrow. we'll see, i guess.