Lost and Found [Jared/Jensen, PG-13]

[apreludetoanend]

Hello, epic amounts of lameness. This is a PG-13 Jared/Jensen slide into ridiculous schmoop of the highest order (though if I understand it correctly, that was kind of the point?) and it has been neither beta'd nor titled. For spn_meanttobeIt's roughly 6.5k, and it's about a quarter of the story I thought I was telling. OOPS. But at least I wrote it. That has

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[electricalgwen]

And this, he thinks, is why it didn't work out with Sandy. Even his bisexuality is gay. Bwah! :)

Nice job! Jensen is ridiculously cute. So sweet that he tried to run away to San Antonio. Also, I didn't really appreciate the awesomeness of these lines until the second time I read them: Superheroes don't need doctors. They're invincible. What that says about Jensen, being afraid that Jared will grow up and not need him anymore... fantastic. :)

[apreludetoanend]

GWEN. You can look at this story and SEE THE DEADLINE LOOMING. It just gets less and less clever as it slides into a soupy puddle of ridiculous schmoop. And I had such PLANS for it, too! At the very least, it was going to get a title.

Also, hi! I think I need to go to bed now. Like, a lot. <3

Oh, yeah: THANK YOU. I'm an idiot, I swear. I love that you liked those lines: the first, because I was uncertain, and the second because I actually wrote the intro ages ago, and I love it wholeheartedly!

[electricalgwen]

I... recognize that feeling. I've done it myself and even if others like the story, I always know it wasn't what it could have been, but there's no way I'm going back to it. I don't know, at the beginning deadlines didn't make me compromise, or at least, I don't think so. Possibly I am more discriminating now, or just a hella lot slower writer (well, that last is true, but largely because of lack of writing time, not so much that the writing itself goes slowly - though that too *sigh*), but that's why I'm not taking on deadlines anymore. I applaud you for the amount of stuff you've got going on!

Also, nice to see it has a title. :)

I finally opened up your bigbang, hoping to get some time to myself to read it tonight. ♥

[apreludetoanend]

TITLE! Yes. I so want to turn this into what it should have been, but I guess one good thing about having all these deadlines is that I just don't have time to do it! Which is good in that it might be a little difficult to explain why it's kind of the same story all over again, only different.

I wish I could lay off the deadline fics like you (because I do hate this feeling) but I will sit around for ages and not write anything at all if I don't have deadlines. Or, at least, I won't finish anything. Which, to the outside world, appears much like not writing.

[electricalgwen]

I have mixed feelings about laying off the deadlines, because, yes, not writing. Or rather, finishing. I don't know, maybe I should give it another shot, try and force myself? Just - the last time I did that, I missed the deadline and I feel like I pretty much screwed up my connections to Buffy fandom for good. Which fucking SUCKS.

[apreludetoanend]

Deadlines kind of feel like a no win situation sometimes. Maybe try one deadline at a time? Or maybe something like spn_30snapshots? That's a little less pressure, but still motivational. There used to be a bi-weekly flashfic community, too. spnflashfic, I think, but I don't know how active it is these days.

That does suck, though, and of all the reasons - I'm sorry to hear that a missed deadline's the cause. You can miss all the deadlines you want with me, and I'll still love you. Just so you know.

[electricalgwen]

♥